dajie just released quan today. with zac loo's car.
dear cute little quan which we got on sept 2 2008.
today is jan 6 2009. We kept him for 4mths and 4days.
He had a good, albeit boring, life with us.
We nurtured him up when he couldn't walk.
We fed him healthy, nutritious food.
He used to nibble our fingers when he was just a small pup.
Now he weighs 12kg/++
I wonder how he'll fare in the wild.
Will he get savaged by the other dogs?
Will he get accepted into a pack?
Will he be strong enough to establish his own pack?
Will he be heartbroken?
Like us?
I can't stop the tears, you know.

His corner in the balcony is still there.
With oscar the octopus, the big pee tray,
little fishcake/whale, the numerous rags we keep giving him
and most recently added, the crocheted scarf i made
which I had no particular use for, anyway.
The Kong, the green rubber ball, the coconut.
The red rubber ball with the yellow shoelace
which he used to swing like a bommy knocker.
I hope he kills rats and stuff with the same enthusiasm.
Just yesterday i had a good walk with him.
He was playing with an empty snail shell.
I still have a tooth that he dropped.
The leash, the shoebox full of doggy stuff.
The chicken bits which he used to love when he was smaller
The biscuit bones. The fish skin cubes.

Dajie said it was cause he didn't chase after the car.
Of course he was puzzled why he wasn't let into the car.
But when they drove away, he didn't bark, he didn't chase after it.
He just lied (yeah, we taught him how to lie) down and looked at it drive away.

Mom, dajie and I keep crying.
Dad's not back, kor's in school, and belicia's at her sec1 camp.
I don't intend to just abandon him like that.
I'll go to Punggol End tomorrow to check up on him
Give him some kibble.
Pat his head.
If I can find him.

I don't even know when was the last time i played with him
Was it when he was tied to the door?
Or when i snuck him fish?
Or played the kibble tossing game?
I miss him so much already.
Oh great, the tears are starting again.
Dajie's washing out his area.
Throwing away his stuff.
I don't want her to do that.
But i don't know what else to do.
At least we're keeping his toys?

I hope he has fun in the wild.
I know he can live there.
Its just this adjustment period.
If he dies today, i'm responsible for it, you know.
If he dies because he's too humanized,
too domesticated,
we are all responsible for his death.
But if he can integrate back into the wild,
i'll be able to rest well
knowing that he's okay.

I remember when he was small and his 'alien' used to come out
mom and belicia were so shocked.
I remember trying to be strict with him,
counting up to 120 for his meal waiting 'sit'.
He was an obedient, intelligent dog.
But wild too.

I remember when he first visited the vet.
So small and scared and cute.
We could carry him in dajie's old overnight bag.
He used to sleep in the cardboard box.
Did we deprive him of a childhood?

I remember reading and researching so much about dogs when he first came.
Joining PetsChannel, and frantically foruming everyday.
The pee tray and oscar were from there.
i read up about dog food
and what was good and what was not.

I remember teaching him to sit.
They days he gave us attitude.
Refusing to listen to us.
Slipping out of his collar when we tried to bathe him in the field.
Cause he went to roll in shit during the walk with dajie.
Biting us in excitement.
Those small lacerations are our memories of him.
I used to call them 'lovebites'.

I remember how Quan used to hate medicated oils so much that we ended up using it as a bite-deterrent.
And that time when i teased him by applying some axe oil on his forehead.
How we gave him pork bones and fish bones.
The salmon bones (and fat) that made his fur thick and glossy.

I remember how i used to let him bite my Mr.Bean bean until it was all salivary,
then i would toss Mr.Bean into the washing machine,
and when it came out clean, i would swing it around, in front of Quan's face until he bit it again.
He was so small then.


I beat him the other day just above the eye.
I hope he's okay.
He looked and behaved okay.

Mom's helping out with the clearing too.

God bless Quan and keep him safe,
keep him away from harm,
and bless him especially for these first few days.
Help him to be able to integrate back into the wild.
Help us to accept him leaving us.
St. Roch, please bless Quan and keep him safe.
Just as the dog fed you, please feed Quan too.
Help him to be able to fit back into his natural surroundings.
In Jesus' name we pray,
Amen.

Labels: Quan

just a random thought:

Phelps starts off his day by eating three fried-egg sandwiches loaded with cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, fried onions and mayonnaise.

He follows that up with two cups of coffee, a five-egg omelet, a bowl of grits, three slices of French toast topped with powdered sugar and three chocolate-chip pancakes.

At lunch, he gobbles up a pound of enriched pasta (that's like one small packet of pasta - it normally feeds about 4 people) and two large ham and cheese sandwiches slathered with mayo on white bread - while drinking about 1,000 calories worth of energy drinks.

For dinner, Phelps loads up on carbs - what he needs to give him plenty of energy for his five-hours-a-day, six-days-a-week regimen - with another pound of pasta and an entire large pizza (you know how many people that can feed).

He washes all that down with another 1,000 calories worth of energy drinks.


Adapted from a New York Post article on Phelps.

lol i love these tiger beer ads. <33 Tiger all the way lol!

MY BLOGSKIN DIED.
BLEAH.
DEEKSHA'S FLYING OFF THIS THURS.
I GOT x15 IN AUDITION:

I'M ADDICTED TO THE OLYMPICS.
COZ OF THE OLYMPICS, I'VE PROBABLY WATCHED MORE TV THESE PAST 2-3 DAYS THAN IN MY PAST 2-3 YEARS OF LIFE.
LIFE IS JUST SO WEIRD.

(and its time to redo my blogskin)
(i'll post my ITS ORANGE! photo here cause its just SO cute. sob)

(Maybe i'll fix it some other day..)

episode 16, since there seems to be a mistake

domo-kun madness, ep 1-18. enjoy.

My personalDNA Report

its damn cool ;)

mouse over the colours to see my evaluation in different aspects. :p
its really cool go do it. really.

i found a lost dog with agri food and vet tag no. 206100. anyone help please? O__O

PAMBY FLEW AWAY YESTERDAY. I miss him SOOOOOO much.
mamby's gonna fly away today too i think.. i was hoping that they would stay here for a while longer.. *sob* mew. so whos mamby&pamby anyway?

mamby&pamby are the two baby olive-backed sunbird chicks. Their parents flew into our balcony one fine day and made their nest on our shui mei (or water jasmine or wrightia religiosa) plant. Then the mother nested the eggs until it hatched and mamby&pamby was born. They grew steadily, leeching off their parent's efforts in collecting nectar from the flowering yellow flame (or copperpod) trees. The pics are just variants of the same tree btw. Yeap. So that was alot of love from the parents.

Pamby was thrown out of the nest by his dad, so he fluttered to the ground and stayed there for about half a day learning how to fly. He gradually climbed up the moneyplant, then climbed up the pot stand, then onto the rim of the water jasmine pot. Then he stayed there for a long while before he finally flew awayy. While we were ALL doing something else. So no one was there to witness his flight. Unlike the previous bird (which we did not name), who scuttled around our house, and eventually made his first flight and landed on da jie's tummy. x) oh wells. good luck pamby!! *sob*. Now mamby's on our 'bamboo' plant. haha. waiting to fly. fly mamby fly! xD

okay so i re-did my blog. gave it a mini makeover. and now instead of looking loudly 'ORANGE' as claimed, it looks more like a sickly shade of yellow. meh. i'm tired. i love the pic, but i can't make it as good as i want it to look like. sigh. must be the tiredness or stuff creeping up on me. ack. charis comment please lol.

i think i can live easily on my own.
i can prepare relatively healthy meals for myself.
and they're tasty too.

this is what i had for breakfast:
scrambled eggs made with appx. 1.5 tbsp of butter, 2 eggs.
2 slices pan toasted white bread
1.5 tsp of honey to eat with toast. (i was considering if i should add chopped fig but decided against it)
1 pear

and lunch:
1 cup pre-packaged Erin vegetable soup
1/4 cup pacific clams (left over from ?? day)
1 tbsp wolfberry
1 dash aonori (chopped green seaweed flakes)
1 orange

see! its quite healthy, ne? :)
i have enough carbs, maybe a bit short on protein, but enough veggies to cover for it. The only thing i have in excess is SODIUM/SALTTT cause most of the stuff was processed. Convenience, mah. :P Preservatives too, on hindsight. eaugh.

my class has cute guys. :)
not boyfriend-type,
at least not now,
but all having their small quirky charms.
i like 1T08

The girls are fun too.
:)
i'm glad i have such a nice class.
<3

jiayou for mid-years everyone! x3

this hols was..
boring.

it was fairly ,
enjoyable.
But definitely nothing
memorable.
haha.
managed to play some games
finish the homework
do some housework.
maybe i'll bake later in the day.
it all depends.

brief guy rating of blackjack21:
(at least those i can remb)
(from what i knew of them through orientation)

fifi - cute/quiet
jijit - funny/mildly crude
c/karl - funny/cute/fun
aloy - handsome/cute/sweet(?)
ben - cute/fun
justin - sweet/quiet
patrick - little boy boy cute/sweet
gary - handsome/hot
bel - cute/sweet
jack - funny/LOL.
alvan - regular? didnt have time to talk to him actually

ACK. i cant remb any more.. T__T i'll go find their names and update when i DO find them. if i do. agh paradox or something. gee. nighty.

DULCE DE LECHE/CARAMEL CHEESECAKE

First of all, you have to do the Dulce de Leche, or the sweet milk caramel candy, preferably at least one day in advance, cause it takes quite a while to make. It's also the essence of the cake. ;) This is my version of the cheesecake, slightly altered. Its not the exact same one i baked for Clarabel's b-day, but a (in my opinion) better (and lighter, and less crack-prone) version.

And i strongly reccomend you read EVERYTHING first before embarking on this recipe. :D


Dulce de Leche (my version)

ingredients
2 cans of condensed milk, NOT sweetened creamer NOR evaporated milk

instructions
1. Pour all the condensed milk into a bowl, then double boil for 2 hours on medium heat, sealing the top of the bowl with aluminium foil to prevent water from dripping in.

2. Pour out 3/4 cup of the semi-caramelised condensed milk, and continue boiling the rest for 2 more hours (or more), until Dulce de Leche is dark brown and semi-solid.

3. Cool the Dulce de Leche fully, then whisk until smooth and store.

4. Cool and store the semi-caramelised Dulce de Leche sauce in an airtight container and keep chilled until cake is served. More instructions on how to use this Dulce de Leche sauce will be provided later on. :p

*notes*
- DO NOT STIR THE DULCE DE LECHE WHILE ITS COOKING
- The first round of caramel you pour out should be light golden brown in colour, and feel like a thick liquid. If overdone, it will start to curdle and become solid-ish. Whisk it with a bit of milk to make it smooth and spreadable again.
- excess Dulce le Leche is very versatile - eat it with bread, on toast, in your drinks, as a topping on custards, or even on its own!


Dulce de Leche Cheesecake!

ingredients
Crust:
1 1/4 cup oreo cookie crumbs
3 tbsp melted butter OR oil

Filling:
3 (8 oz.) packages cream cheese (24 oz. total)
1 cup superfine granulated sugar
2 tbsp cornstarch
2 tsp vanilla extract
3 large eggs (60g each) AT ROOM TEMPERATURE
1/3 cup whole milk
1/2 cup Dulce de leche

instructions
1. Preheat oven to 400°F (200°C). Line bottom and sides of a 9-inch springform pan with greaseproof paper. Use a small amount of oil/butter to help stick the paper on.

2. Mix crust ingredients together, and press into the bottom of the pan. Place pan on a baking sheet and bake for 5-7 minutes. Remove from oven and cool to room temperature.

3. Reset oven temperature to 325°F (160°C).

4. With an electric mixer beat cream cheese until smooth, then beat in sugar and cornstarch until well mixed and smooth. Add vanilla and beat until smooth. Add eggs one at a time, blending well after each addition. Beat until smooth. Add milk and mix until well blended.

5. Measure 1/2 cup of the cheesecake batter and pour into a small bowl. Add Dulce de Leche and stir until well combined.

6. Pour plain batter over crust. Top with Dulce de leche batter by placing rounded spoonfuls over the cheesecake batter and gently swirl into plain batter with the tip of knife or fork. Be careful not to scratch the cheesecake base! Tap sides of the container gently so that any trapped bubbles of air will surface. Pop them :)

7. Bake in preheated 300°F (150°C) oven for 50-60 minutes in a *waterbath, until center is almost set. Remove cake from waterbath and let it cool completely (45-55 minutes) before covering and placing in the refrigerator. Refrigerate 6 hours or overnight before serving.

8. Before serving, warm up pre-prepared Dulce de Leche sauce briefly, but do not boil or caramelise it. When serving, drizzle each slice of cheesecake with one or two tablespoons of Dulce de Leche sauce - enjoy!

*important notes*
- a waterbath is ESSENTIAL in preventing a cheesecake from cracking; this is how you do it:

1. Wrap the exterior of your cake tin in 2 layers of aluminium foil, being extremely careful not to tear the aluminium foil when moving the cake tin around. This is to prevent the water from seeping into your cheesecake from the bottom when baking - you wouldn't want boiled cheesecake!

2. Find a roasting pan, or a pan big enough to take up 2/3 (or more) of your oven's space.

3. Place the cheesecake in the centre of your roasting pan, and fill the roasting pan halfway with BOILING water. Preferably straight from a thermos flask. WITH OVEN GLOVES ON, put the filled roasting pan into the oven. Be careful! It will be heavy with all the water and the cheesecake.

4. When the baking time is up, transfer both the roasting pan + cheesecake to a nearby heatproof area, i.e. the stovetop. Be EXTREMELY careful not to slosh the water around, as it can scald and burn as it is still very hot!

5. With gloves on, remove the cheesecake from the hot water bath, and peel off the wet aluminium foil in the sink. Transfer the cheesecake to a cooling rack, and cool as stated in the recipe.

- HOWEVER, if doing a waterbath is simply impossible for you, place a disposable aluminium-foil cake tin filled halfway with boiling water in on the bottom rack instead. It should work almost equally well.

- NEVER EVER OPEN THE OVEN WHILE THE CHEESECAKE IS BAKING. Doing thus will almost definately cause cracks. It works 99% of the time.

brief guy rating of 08s11 >__<

pranesh - nothing to say :x
reuben - cute/sweet
wei jie - looks like the mr colin from bbc's pride and prejudice. :x
akhim - little boy cute/funny
najiy - sweet
timothy - cute/mildly irritating
nixon - funny/fun to talk to/sweet
yuxiang - nice guy
jinchao - shuai/quiet

if i didnt do this, i would feel weird. :x

yes yes i'm finally gonna blog on japan. :)
I'll add more details later cause i cant remember everything now..

INTRO
my family decided to go to japan not as a holiday per se, but mroe a s a trip to visit my auntie who went over a long while ago caue she married a japanese man aka my uncle. :) SO! we did not book any tours or stuff, we just bought the plane tickets and converted a load of money and went over. Totally free and easy. And my uncle and aunt were our tour guides. :D Btw my uncle, though japanese, speaks good, proper english. HONTO-DES! Yepp. So now i can start the blogging properly.

Before Takeoff
My mom was getting cranky cause she was scared of the cold and the new environment and illness and all possible bad stuff that may befall us. It was quite tiresome. My dad was scared we were not prepared enough and kept making us bring extra stuff (which we eventually did not use). More specifically, i just stuffed whatever he handed to me into my luggage cause i didn't want to hear him nag. one nagging mom is moer than enough. especially if she does not nag usually.

Then suddenly an old friend of my dad appeared for a christmas visit. It was super shocking. And we were in like our final stages of preparation, so we kinda just took his presents and scooted off. haha. then our uncle (singapoeran lol) came to fetch us to the airport. it was about 7pm then. and out flight was past midnight. about 2am i think. anyway, we then left the house. Uncle Loo (my sister's godpa) also was there to help, so transporting all 6 of us + luggage was settled. quite a feat, eh.


TAKEOFF!
After we reached the airport we took a while to check in, cause our seats were messed up, then we went for dinner and loads of duty free shopping. My mom also spent alot of time complaining why we werent seated together even though it was absolutely useless. Then at duty free, my dad bought lots of alcohol for uncle sato, thinking that he would like it, stout and XO and stuff. i'm not too sure actually about the specifics.. but its along those lines. Strong stuff. (In the end though, it turned out uncle sato was pretty much an anti-alcohol person, so.. i'm still wondering about the fate of those bottles. They would have more appreciated in our home i guess.) Anyway. We then boarded the plane (SIA) and i was seated at the window seat, sandwiched between 2 japanese guys. the guy nearer to the window tried hard to sleep , and the guy next to the aisle just promptly went to sleep. I couldnt, even though i tried :[ Also, the flight stewardesses kept talking to me in jap cause i looked fairly the part and was, after all, sandwiched between two very jap japanese guys. i.e. young trendy male and business man. And lactose-free meals suck. really. my ice cream wasn't even sorbet - it was this artificial-tasting thing made from soya. I've eaten soya ices like a gazillion times better tasting from Mr Bean. SIA should go get some. :p anyway, during the flight i didn't know how to use the in-flight entertainment system, so i got bored really fast. The only thing i could do was play kirby and pokemon. Both at excruciatingly slow rates. then the japanese gentleman at the window suddenly needed to go to the toilet. But voila! The aisle guy was fast asleep. So being the polite people they are, the jap businessman decided not to disturb his fellow citizen and CLIMBED ONTO THE HANDRESTS TO CROSS OVER. It was shocking. And being the newbie i am, i thought it was perfectly okay for people to behave like this. Save it wasn't. The jap businessman didnt seem embarrassed either. so life went on. until he went to the toilet (on another occasion) and right smack in that interval of time i was served a lactose free meal. so my table was occupied, and he couldnt walk across on our handrests. dirty and stuff, right? so he stood there grumbling in jap (which disteressed me greatly) and i was just getting more and more distressed, too worried to eat my meal. Eventually he called a flight stewardess over and she held my tray of food while he climbed back. Funny-ne? not at that moment, but now in recollection, funny. very funny xD.

JAPAN! Day one.
After we touched down, we had to fill in some forms, with funny stuff like 'Alien Identification Number', essentially our I/C no, and other funny alien-related words. apparently outsiders were called ALIENS in japan. haha.

Then we went to check out. There were 8 counters for citizens, and 8 counters for Aliens. Even though there were probably 8 times as many Aliens as Japanese. Yeah. So we had to wait. Then some smart Singaporeans decided that they were Japanese and went over to the Japanese counter (which was conveniently labelled in Japanese) and tried to get into Japan. Of course they failed, so they had to re-queue ALL OVER AGAIN. heh. Right from the back. Then some singaporean celebrity, you know the Phua Chu Beng's wife went to nicely complain. They opened an exclusive lane for her. Then my mom complained, nicely too. They did not understand. hahah. After much conversation (in sign-language), they finally got the gist of my mom's one-sided conversation. So they opened another 10 rows of counters and we all checked out quickly. :) talk about japanese efficiency.

We then went to buy limousine tickets to Omiya, my aunts place. Sounds cool? Not really, cause in Japan, coaches are called 'Limousines'. Nice name, but yeah, reality strikes back. So we went to take the coach, and the moment we stepped out of the airport, we were chilled to the bone. Actually, we didn't need to step out to feel the cold, cause once people entered or left, the wind would blow in and it was super cold. The weather was sub-zero, i guess, cause the moment we stepped out we were all breathing mist like crazy. After a while though, the bus arrived and we all boarded, heading for Omiya. It was a 2 hour trip.

i'll add more when i go home.

manga update! i've added a column to track down what manga's ive read and stuff. :) yeah. anything i read is reccomended! but it may not suit everyones tastes, cause i read a really broad spectrum of stuff. hehe. cyaaa.

and i promise to blog on my holiday on japan before its too late.

just a random thought for a plot

nice guy meets nice girl
date
nice girl has terrible whorish sister
nice guy scorns sister
romance develops
one day, nice guy suddenly dumps nice girl and elopes with terrible sister
nice girl is so heartbroken she wants to go die
eventually overcomes, promises never to romance
nice guy (now not-so-nice) returns with terrible sister, heartbroken
terrible sister was expectedly whorish, broke nice guy's heart
nice guy comes begging on his knees for nice girls forgiveness
nice girl says NO even though she wants to say YESSSSS!!!
scared same thing will happen and afraid of heartbreak
terrible whorish sister feels guilty and confesses to nice girl
sincerely
nice girl cant stand it
suicide
nice guy is heartbroken 100%
suicide
sister is guilt-stricken 100%
suicide

TA-DA.
and its a tragedy, yes.



AND AND AND
i'll blog about my trip to Japan soon.
I promise.
Also.
If you want the plot just take it. I'm fine with that. :)
Its quite priddy, isn't it.
(Meaning the plot.)
*hums softly, gaily to myself*

colin firth is hot.
because of pride and prejudice.

and yes,
i have changed my stand:
i like manly guys too,
because of colin firth.

Mister Darcy!
:x

Lit Notes now! Macbeth is a relatively easy topic, so i found some great notes, and got an upload of it here:

Download Macbeth Summary & Analysis.doc

Is that does not work, just visit the link directly here:
Macbeth Full Summary

i've been painstakingly making Geog notes for a select few chapters from Marianne Chong. Its no longer out in print, so i hope you appreciate what i've got. If anyone wants it. lol.

If the links don't work but you still want the file, email me or something.

Download Climate and Nat Veg.doc

i'll add more later.

i have a bubble fetish.
[i blew them out of the balcony today for 10 mins straight,
only to realise
(after the fifth minute)
that they were blowing out of my balcony,
straight into my neighbour's balcony]
thank mr sng
i really really really appreciate them.

p.s. bubbles inspire me too. if i'm bored i'll post some poems or two or even a fic on bubbles.

p.p.s. AND I'M NOT TALKING ABT THE PPG BUBBLES. gosh there sure are some immature people out there.

drown your sorrows in lime cordial. make it according to the ratio on the bottle. it works. i'll go sleep now.

I LOVE GANI KARIM!!!
HE'S SO SEXY AND
HIS VOICE ROCKS AND
HE HAS SUCH GRREEAATT SHOWMANSHIP.
omg i so love him.

after i discussed with my mom alaizabel cray and the feeling it left on me, as well as charis's parents' views on danny phantom, i finally came to the conclusion: alaizabel cray, though it may be a good book, was undoubtedly bad for the.. soul. as was all supernatural related stuff. in primary school i read buffy the vampire slayer. it was trash. and i highly doubt any other kind of supernatural book can be any better for a person. furthermore, alaizabel cray left this dark heavy feeling in my chest after i was done with it and the feeling lingered. i also had bad dreams and my mood was quite affected. it wasn't pleasant at all. so telling charis to deviate from this trend of supernatural and ghostly stuff was good. although i should have approached it in a more direct manner, i guess. i should have stated my objective more upfront. i guess i was like skirting the main point today. hopefully i'll be able to coax her out of it. i'm probably not very coherent here, but with God's grace, all should turn out fine.

this supernatural soliciting cannot be good - only ill.

what makes me happy?
this:
'oh wow that tastes great'
'what'd you call it again?'
'can you bake it for me?'
'wa, hou hiong a, zhen ga hou hiong'
thats canto. fyi.

butterflies in my tummy.
from carpentry to corpulation.
whatever that means.
whoever it comes from.
;D

lovin' randomness.
lovin' me.
lovin' baking.

Archdiocesan YD 07
ROCKS.
and will rock on
always
in my memories.
loved the worship.
loved it so much.
JUMP AROUND!
:3

but there were also
alot of significant, heart-warming events.
other than hyped-up praise & worship.
only downside is that,
youth aren't too appreciative.
yet.
sad.
hope at least the holy spirit touched them in some way.
hope their lives will change

for the better.

cute
Anto
Joel
Gabriel & Glenn (both in their own ways)

handsome
Bryan

eye-candy
Colin & Douglas

and a couple more, charming in their own ways.
so thats living proof that my church has good looking guys.
but these really stand out.
fairly infatuated.
1/4
1/16
okay, maybe not.
but it'd be nice to like guys once a while

youtube
'funny thai commercials'
click
CHEERS BEER
BEER AD
and more.

thats funnier than this
cmi
poem.
:)

from now on i'll only post positive or helpful posts. its no point for me to rant only on this blog. it doesn't help me. it only makes you emo. so nothing positive come out of it. instead, from now on, i'll do exactly what i said in my first sentence. yes, i'll be your happy lightbulb. whatever that means.

and here are some helpful, positive tips on:


5 STEPS TO PREVENT CRAMPS
certified by Ber

1) Drink at least 2 litres of water a day.
Not just does this prevent dehydration, it somehow keeps the cramps at bay. And if plain water tastes like CRAP, try adding 2 level tablespoons of demerara (or plain) sugar to 1 litre of water. it makes a world of difference.

2) Sleep a FULL 9 hours a day.
Yes, 9. Its more than the reccomended 8, but make an effort to do this and your life will be cramp free. (And if you do it daily, even on non-period days, it'll makes your grades go up. Really.)

3) EAT YOUR VEGGIES.
This sounds like a regular health talk, but eat 2 apples if you hate green, or eat 2 apples plus 2 cups of cooked green veg if you don't. It sounds like alot, but if you put your meat into cups, you'll realise most Singaporeans actually consume like 5+ cups of meat a day.
EWW. imagine all that chicken hormones going to your boobs and all that pork urea going to your bloodstream. sick. so yes. eat your veggies to help clear off those weird toxins and ease off those cramps.

4) Avoid cold drinks, or cooling stuff.
I can't exactly specify, but if you ask your mom, she would be more than happy to testify. (And help explain.) Girls with stronger constitutions probably will pooh-pooh this statement, but if you're weak like me, this is a really major factor.
Cold drinks = any liquid that has been in the fridge, or has ice
Cooling stuff = jelly, watermelon, ice-cream, western tea, sour food, etc. ask your mom or granma. they will list many more.

5) Wear GRANNY UNDIES!
Heh. the infamous 'GRANNY-UNDIES'. Those which reach above your waist and cover your belly-button. Mortifying, isn't it? the thought of wearing those horrendous stuff. But honest to God, i swear these are the gold nuggets to cramp relieving. They cover your lower abdomen, keeping it warm, so it doesn't have spasms, i.e. cramps; they hug your waist, so your pad doesn't slip out of place; and they actually are pretty comfortable.
Just don't wear drop-waist or hipster stuff. Or belly-revealing clothing. People WILL stare.

p.s. wearing granny-undies on a normal day tucks in your lower abdomen, making you look like you have a super-flat tummy. And as they generally have VERY tight waistbands, they naturally make you look like you have a tiny waist. Quite sexy. Just don't let your friends see it. Accidentally or otherwise.

p.p.s. when you wear a dress with a flared bottom, wear granny undies. the dress's waistband hides the granny-undies waistband, so theres no VPL (visible panty line), and you'd look like you have a small waist and flat tummy. Very flattering. However, if you're wearing a shift dress (the kind without waistbands), DON'T wear granny undies. when you walk, everythings visible. haha.


Hope you 'preciated it.

its funny how teachers can change a parent's opinion of their child so easily, so quickly, with just a few words.

SO WHAT IF I HAVE A PENCHANT FOR LYING?

bleah.
people are happier when i lie anyway.
its not like i love to lie.
some stuff people are happier not hearing about.
i mean, there is a reason why the word 'white lie' exists, right?
sigh.
i know its bad to justify lying,
but if it can make so many people happy,
why shouldn't i?
sigh.
its taxing. i'm tired.
but to unravel all those lies -
it'd really take quite a while.

its better you just live with the stuff i say.
IT MAKES YOU HAPPY ANYWAY!
TELL ME WHATS WRONG WITH MAKING PEOPLE HAPPY.
then i'll stop lying..
sigh.

It was like some crazy circus freak-show,
where specimens yearned to expose their aberrations -
no, not to flaunt, but to humbly exhibit to the ringmaster.

Who? Who was the most peculiar?
The one you said most unnatural? Abnormal?

And butterflies fluttered in all the little specimen's tummies.
'Me!' They all silently pleaded,
yearning to be picked, to be showcased inn front of the rest.

'Look at my monstrosity!' they all wanted to boast,
each and every little one of them.
It was the desire of their hearts -
to be selected, selected by the ringmaster,
who would slave their little bodies until they could take it no more.

And yet they wanted it.
To be selected - like an apple from the marketplace,
a donkey from the stables.
It was their one and only dream.

But i despised it.
I despised my deformity, like an evil branding;
I tried to hide it as much as I could,
away from prying eyes, from disgusted stares
or fascinated glances, only to be washed over with guilt a moment later.
I could imagine them whispering to their friends in hushed tones -
'How could I actually haved ENJOYED looking at that?'
I abhorred myself.
It was beyond abhorrence.
I wished i had never been born.

Then they imposed a rule -
all malformed children were to be examined,
like a specimen, then labelled,
like an item.

It degraded me to being simply an item.
Another statistic, a mark on the wall.
Watching rows and rows of grotesquely misshapen children,
being examined.

Was there any pride in this?
What did I stand to gain?
Why did they love it, and I, hate it?
So many questions gone unanswered, so many more running through my head.
My like was one only of discontentment.

I stepped forward, the next one to be examined.

haha.
i was reading this book abt an anorexic.
thankfully, it had a happy ending. ^^
but anyway, it makes me reflect on myself.
so i kinda found a few addictions/obsessions
i'll list them

addictions/obsessions
1)gaming
-pokemon
-gunbound
-maplestory
-pangya
-audition
2)reading
-once i pick up i book i can't do any other activity until i finish it. or else i'll be REALLY pissed.
3)writing
-but its quite subjective. i'll get in and out of the mood super easily. so it doesn't fit in exactly, but it should be somewhere there.
4)baking, i guess.
-if i'm eager to do a recipe, nothing stands in the way. wahaha.
5)more. i'm sure there are more, but i just can't put my finger on it for the moment. eck.

so thats why i can never focus in school.
there are always SO MANY more captivating things to do.
and, unlike the girl in the story,
i'm not a learning-crazy kinda person.
no wonder i'm not a genius at school.
i probably could be, though, if i tried. :)

the best ways to cure depression:

1) have a heart to heart talk with your best friend about nothing. :)
2) play with a puppy. :D (even though that means unintentional bites and scratches)

of which i was administered both, and now am as happy and jolly as a jolly roger. lol. okay not jolly roger. jelly. i'm as jolly as a jelly. whatever that means. :x but now i'm back to me. me and my randomness. happiness. crappyness. so yesh. ignore my prev post. it was made in a state of insanity. n____n <-- [thats something AWFULLY CUTE i learnt from Trudy (<33)]

okay fine. i do want to rant.
wether you like it or not.
or more like just say where i really really really want to be right now.

I want to have a year long trip to one of malaysia's ulu picturesque beaches, without having any worry over money. My house should come with a tablet (with screen protection) and a desktop pc with good internet connection, also having AuditionSEA, Maplestory, O2jam and Trickster pre-installed. I want a nice keyboard, preferably the gamer's keyboard, or the one PCBunk uses. It must have a 16-9 inch LCD screen, no bigger. I would love to have a credit card, not particularly for purchasing purposes, but more for selling. I also want to be located near a church, preferably a gothic one, supermarket, baker's specialty shop, as well as a mega library (for the cookbooks and novels) and have my house come with a convectional fan oven, suitable for grilling, steam-baking and regular baking. My house must also come with a stove and hood as well as a set of heavy-bottomed pots and pans, preferably AMC. It should also come equipped with a pi water distilling machine. It must have a good collection of chinese herbs and medicines, as well as western ones. It particularly must have a supply of cracked lingzhi spores, preferably in pill form, and cordyceps, and hasima. I would like to have a daytime maid too, to help out with house maintenence, and a big loyal dog (one of the retrievers) to be my best buddy for that time as well as my protector at night.

I would spend 365 days there doing nothing, except:
playing audition, (in regulation) o2jam, and any other game i happen to fancy. I would bake, upgrade and maintain my online bakery, blog frequently and in deatil (so my family and friends have an idea of what i'm doing and how i'm faring). I would take long walks at the seaside each day with my dog, and enjoy every sunrise and sunset. I would attend daily mass, and join the english choir. I would cook elaborate recipes, and bake occasionally, sharing the successful batches with my neighbours.

And when the 365 days are over, i would return to Singapore only to realise that all the old schooling systems have been abolished, to be replaced by more encouraging ones whereby students won't be pressured to score high marks, but more to understand and know how to implement what they studied. There won't be any fixed period of time to complete the syllabus, but instead, each will learn at his or her own pace, and do homework to asses their level of understanding once their teacher is certain that the child does understand, and knows how to apply the skills confidantly.

The whole objective of the 365 day holiday?
To destress, and be able to put my mind off school work without worrying about the consequences, for a period of time. The last paragraph, is obviously crap, as it would never happen in Singapore, but at least its a comforting thought. I really would like that. I really would like alot of things, but this is no eutopia, so i'll just find some dark corner and go into depression. not like it'll help, but for now, even seeking medical treatment sounds more appealing than going to school only to be bombarded by teachers about homework, filing, and KEEPING UP WITH THE SYLLABUS! oh i fagging hate that last phrase. really. honestly.


p.s. why did i rant all this, out of the blue? cause yesterday i missed school to see a doctor, and guess what she said? she said all my sickness were because of stress. and she gave my 'happy' pills. to supposedly help me destress. and now i think i'm falling into depression. so thats why. my future as of now, if i don't do anything, looks rather bleak. i'll probably fail my o-levels in more than jsut a few subjects, and be forced to retake it. and its not like i love cedar, anyway. in fact, i think .. i think alot, but its not worth saying here. i know about the privacy standards of the internet. fah.

you know what i really really really really want to do right now?

you don't?

its okay.

i'm in no effing mood to tell either.

i think my mom has a sadistic penchant on flogging her kids.
first she threatens me to no end, just because i sleep late.
and let me ask you: for a 15 year old singaporean girl, is sleeping at 11 considered late?
i highly doubt so.
i know of many people who regularly sleep far later than me.
so why all the threats?
she says its for my health,
my liver
blah blah.
so whatt?
its MY health,
MY liver
关你什么屁事?
piss offfff!

but anyway,
she eventually flogged me anyway
sometime during the holidays
when zi han and amanda were around
i could see she really took delight in belting me.
how? you ask?
because she keeps 'showing off' my belt marks
(or rather, bruises)
to zi han and amanda,
threatening to do the same to them
lest they disobey her.
a very straightforward reaction would be:
wtf?!
yeahh. i felt like saying that so many times over.
which sane mom would show off her belted kid to other people's kids, just to instill a kind of subservient obedience in them?
no one except my mom.
fag.
and she keeeeeeps on mentioning my bruised calves to her friends
with some kind of warped pride
as though shes really proud of having belted me so badly.
wtf.
wtf.
i feel like some kind of prized animal -
an animal prized for its special fur coat,
or in my case,
skin.
ah what the frigging crap.
just put me in a steel cage already!
drag me around and show me off to your frigging friends!
I KNOW YOU'RE SO DAMMED PROUD OF HAVING BEATEN ME SO BADLY.
I WOULD BEAT YOU BACK TOO IF I COULD, you know.
and show YOU off to MY friends.
like a prized mink coat.
fag.
at least now the bruises are faint.
you can stop your shitty gloating,
witch.

and i'm gonna make a happy post on lj. feel free to read.

NOTE: my happy posts would go to my LJ blog, zakei.livejournal.com.
or maybe i'll just randomly alternate.

but if you are my stalker, feel free to visit both daily. and if you want to further stalk me, (if thats even possible,) you can go see my class blog. i won't give the link, but if you REALLY are MY stalker, you'll be able to find it. somehow. like how you found my blog. (:

today
is
frigging
humid

pardon me for swearing
SO MUCH
these days
but the weather's killing me

its like my cear shirt
is no longer a shirt:
its just a blue
second skin.
SO HOT LAH.
look.
it even made me say singlish.
thats like one in a million.
thats the extend of humidity and hotness
blearrgh.

i wish i didn't have sweat pores
or more like
i wish they werent SO UBER overreactive
blargh.
piss off.

one curious thing i realised
i love to pop pills

you know,
my mom is a health freak.
really.
she makes us eat
all kinds of
vitamin supplements
everyday.
and i remember
once i was ill,
so i had to top up
my daily supplements
with TCM pills.
(my mom is a strong advocater
of TCM.)
and i was counting.
i easily popped 15 pills
everyday.
for a few days.
i shall list them. (:
(by now you should know that besides dots, lists are my fave thing. among others.)
(i cant help it! i have a thing for lists. [:)

Pills i Pop
1. USANA daily essentials (2) (regularly)
2. USANA calcium (1) (regularly)
3. USANA poly c (1/2) (regularly)
4. USANA visionex (1/2) (occasionally)
5. USANA ginko (1/2) (occasionally)
6. USANA bi-omega (1) (occasionally)
7. USANA proflavanol (2) (occasionally)
8. SHAKLEE liver DTX complex (3) (regularly)
9. NATURE'S GREEN 牛黄解毒片 (4) (only when i'm ill)
10. panadol (1-3) (only when i'm very ill)
11. SUNRIDER conco (1/2) (only when i'm having very very very severe asthma)

so you can count.
i know you're not dumb.
so IF
i had very very very severe asthma and i'm very ill
and i'm taking all my 'occasionally' pills
that would be quite a handful.
literally.

bad pun.
but oh well.
gniteys.
hope you had fun reading.
i sure had fun consuming them.

GAH. if I didnt have problems using livejournal, i don't see a reason why others should find it SO SUPERLY HARD to post. RAWRRRR. This is pissing me off BIG TIME. fagging big time. i mean, comeon!! POST SOMETHING! like 'hi, this is proof that i at least KNOW how to use LJ.' or something along those lines? or just a simple self intro? like i like to flirt and be a man-eater or something? ARGH. i just simply CANT BELIEVE that 4C is so anti-social. or don't tell me that they're really that internet-dumb. ah save me. all that effort gone to waste. its really pissing me off. and its quite dissapointing. i was expecting a better response lor. sigh. even charis isn't posting. gah. maybe its just me p(re)-ms-ing, but its really getting on my nerves. sigh. ._____.

i'm having so much trouble with all my other blog related stuff.

i.e.
my by-ber is still lacking pictures
and i keep forgetting to take them

i.e.
the class blog on livejournal.
its making me fret
maybe not so much now, but
yeah.

and i want to sleep
attach me to a drip to keep me hydrated
and give me my nutrient requirements
and add sleeping pill equivalents
to let me sleep for 2 days straight
so my body can shape itself
back into tip top condition.

this weariness is getting on my nerves.
i want to be hyper
but its too exhausting
and thats pissing me off.

also
i may be migrating to livejournal
more convenient.

and about the black skin.
its not a sign of emo-ness
i just like the olive tree.
i like the colour olive.
i like almost all colours cept pink.
but then again.
if you catch me in a good mood
i'll also like pink.

if you ask me to pick a range of colours
my choice of colours will be:
purple
green
orange
red

then just about any colour, i guess.
and i', overposting
but i don't care.
i cant care less.
i'm careless.
ah whatever.
i want to eat my ham sandwich.
ciao.

i'm not emo.
lets make that clear.
i only act emo
cause it makes me happy.
okey?

if i'm a emo at heart
i won't bake free cookies,
flirt with guys online,
(its only online, after all..)
(i'm not stupid enough to
go meet them in real life)
do random good deeds,
or be hyper when i feel like it.

gettit?

its not that i have a thing against emos.
my sister is emo.
my friends are emo.
(not all though)
i love emos.
they're great fun.
to me.

but then again, i'm not an airhead.

you can call me pragmatic.
i got my own reasons for just about everything i do.
but you don't need to know. (:
eventually, though, it benefits me.
at least,
from my point of view.

so there.





just some small clarifications.

solution no1 to money woes
hongbao money
:)

lol i went to play this card game today.
its about predicting your opinions on your love life with X person.

i'll go about telling you how to play.
then i'll teach you how to explain/interpret it.
also,
don't take it seriously, even if it may be accurate.
your life is in your hands, not in cards
or whatever posessing those cards
:)

how to play
1. shuffle a deck of cards while thinking about the guy/girl you want to evaluate your love life with.
2. deal it into 4 distinct decks, facing downwards.
3. take the first deck you split, then open the cards one by one until you reach a HEART/SPADE ACE, KING or QUEEN. once you open that card, return it to the back to the deck you opened it from, and put the remainder of the deck face down, at one side.
4. do the same for the rest of the decks, stacking the remainders ontop of each other in order of which you opened first. i.e. first at the bottom, last at the top.
5. further deal them into 3 decks, then repeat the heart/spade ace/king/queen sorting out.
6. stack the remainder, first at the bottom, last at the top.
7. deal then into 2 decks, and do the procedure for the last time.
8. stack the remainder of the first deck at eh bottom, 2nd at the top.
9. now with the cards still facing down, open them one by one, placing them in a circular manner, CLOCKWISE. the spade/heart king/queen/ace should be the first card you open. the last card you open should link with the first card you opened.
10. you're done!

interpretations
1. firstly, you MUST read it clockwise, from the first card you opened.
2. the spade queen and king symbolise you and the person you're predicting for.
3. the heart positions basically show how close your heart is to you, or the other person.
4. people cards (jack, queen, king) basically symbolise gooseberries. you can identify the gooseberries. my gooseberry for polar was a diamond king, obviously his dad. there was another queen right next to his spade king card, showing that he has another girl. (i know who she is but i'm not jealous haha. shes a bunny from trickster. and in case you didn't know, we didn't even get together, so theres no reason for me to announce any break up okay? lols. we're still friends, just not that close anymore. stop asking please and thanks.)
his heart card was next to his queen, showing he really loves her. then there was a bunch of number cards. OH YEAH. i haven't explained those.
5. those are just like issues seperating you from you're guy/girl. like maybe religion, or that you speak good english and his english sucks and the like. stuff that are obstacles lor.

then going accordingly, you should be able to evaluate. its quite fun to do if you got lotsa free time and poker cards, but otherwise, yeah. it was fun while it lasted, and if you asked me to play again, i'll probably reject, but yeah. just for blogging sakes. ^^

I start brushing my teeth regularly for 3 days and people start asking me if i went to whiten my teeth. wow.

p.s. typically i brush my teeth only once or twice a week. and the dental nurse still always says my teeth are wonderful and well-brushed. heh. now THATS called skill. *bows*

i need money.
desperately.

i need:
$50 new speakers
$50 1gb sd+stuff (i rashly purchased it online. now i regret. bleah.)
$70 asiasoft prepaids
-$50 for moms skill change
-$15 new permanent clothes
-$5 change of name to -RiP-zakei
$10 haircut.

therefore,
i need
$180.
on petty fees.
which is
really
QUITE
stupid.

but i already
finalized
(or is it finaliSed?)
these
descisions
so i really
really
need the money now.
and i have
not the
slightest
clue
as to how
i should
go about
attaining it.

rawr/sigh.

moral of the story:
don't ever give me a business to handle

except my online bakery
which i may have to tear down soon
anyway.

health problems.
fag them.

updated my links
after a long long long time.
(:
sorry to the peeps i deleted.
but it seemed
rather intrusive
for me to still have your names there
when i'm already not all that
close to you anymore.
>_<

OFFICIALLY UP AND RUNNING!
(but short of pictures)
is my online bakery!
visit it!
HERE
yupp

thats why i've been neglecting this recently..
i've been putting quite a fair bit of xin xue
into making that webby
^^ so yeah.
don't make my efforts go to waste.
go buy something!
^^

these is the stuffies i got for mes xmas
WHOOPEES!

1. 100bucks from dad
2. purple animal hand sewn file bag from mom
3. brown pullover-ish boyfriend sweater from da-jie
4. godiva chocolaets from mei *love love ^__^~!*
5. rosary made from purple stone (soon?) from e-ma
6. diary+pink umbrella from com-oh
7. 12.50bucks from dai cou-fu
8. 100bucks from po-po
9. 30bucks sportslink voucher from uncle peter
10. MY FAVE SNACK from uncle philip. xD YAYYS!
11. small gel bottle with macaroni 'bere' in it from selene and amanda
12. chocolates+letter from sharron
13. hand crafted named keychain from OLD (:
14. xmas tree cookie from nicole *YUM!* ~^-^~
15. yellow sock+stuff from jason, bryan and charlotte. i think?
16. ceramic 3-d letter B+letter from charlotte
17. divine mercy rosary from melvin (: [its pinned to my wallet so it looks like the cat on my wallet is holding it xD]
18. chocolates, sweets and snacks from other peeps ^__^ i'm awfully sorry if i missed your name >_<

my xmas ROCKS! YAYYS!!
*huggles everyone*

audit.
and my holidays (thus far).

cant pass 18-19 license. SIGH
even made me resort to searching for hacks.
somehow got related to hacking maple.
now making my own little hacking device for maple.
aren't i bored.
i'm so bored i'm actually using punctuation marks.
not bored enough to use caps.

and while i googled for hacks
i stumbled upon crappyZAP's blog.
and i found out stuff.
i'm not disclosing.
so yeah.
made me not want to hack that much.
but HEY~
i'm not hacking other peep's accounts.
its a perf hack i'm looking for.
so piss off.
kidding.

i'm quite pissy now cause
-pause-

RIDDLE TIME!
Q: which mom in her right mind would make her kid wash dishes manually at 10.30pm?
A: MY MOM! God bless her soul! *growls*

yeah.
so thats why i'm pissed.
not forgetting that i have sinus
that reacts to changes in environment.
thats basically everything.
so if anything around me changes, my nose suffers.
like sniffles, nose block, shit of that sort.
now i'm being crude.
*slaps myself*
goshh
and i just went for confession on monday.
oh help.

ANYWAY!
i've like gone off course so much.
i'm sposed to be rambling on what?
oh yes: the significant events of this holiday.
lets just list them.
i'm really pissed now.
if i dont list them soon, my com's life is at stake.
SO,
i'll go into detail ONLY if i feel happy enough.
so.

10 BLOGWORTHY EVENTS OF MY HOLIDAYS (thus far)

1. repainted my shared room (its between me, my younger and older sister) (and i don't suffer from middle child syndrome)
2. baked until i fell ill
3. (kinda got together and broke up with polar) had a GREAT quarrel with polar's dad. (will save for posterity. its locked in my h/p's inbox ^^)
4. audited. now lv 18-19 stuck at license. its at the top. i could've audited more, but you know, my family sucks. (remind me to rant on this later)
5. xmas pagent at church. (if you don't know, nevermind. its my blog, after all.)
6. got an eye thingy. helps my eyes lotsa
7. free wind in my tummy. makes me let gas incredibly loudly. *scowls* sometimes i try pretend it wasn't me but its way too obvious. dosen't smell much tho. ^___^~!
8. got new shelving, drawers (trays) and com tables from IKEA.
9. did alot of secret shopping on my own :x
10. went bunking a whole lot

okay i'm pretty tired so i'll just go through everything briefly.

1. repainted my room.
purple, lime green and turquiose stripes
uneven width
was done with masking tape, newspaper (and IKEA boxes), 2 rollers, 2 handbrushes, a stepladder and lots of loud music.
the lines i masked out were straight
the lines my jie masked out were curvy
lined the floor with newspapers and IKEA boxes, if you couldn't guess what they were for
listened to my jie mp3 player since mine kept running out of bat and kinda spoiled
found out my jie was a closet emo
she still denies it now
quote: 'no lor! i'm not emo! you know, everyone's actually a emo, its just the extent of emo-ness'
eventually used remaining paint to paint a flower around the ceiling light
(its a glowing circle plastic thing)

2. baked until i fell ill
(my moms nagging again)
got a few sackfuls of chocolate chips and cocoa powder from uncle loo.
its like about 5kg per packet, and ive got a cupboard full of them
went trying out all kinds of chocolate chip receipes
baked about 13 diff recipes
courtesy allrecipes.com
checkitout, its a cool webby ^^
got a few GREAT recipes.
but also ran the oven for like 3 days
body overheated, too yit hei
(its the next day. i'm really draggy in bloggin o_O)
kindof broke down, got feverish, super heaty, and got wind.
mom ignored me, and i dint want to tell her
scared she whack me instead
or nag the hell outta me

but i still gotta bake soon
my general xmas gift for this year will be cookies.
ehehehehe.
>__<~!
wish me luck.
hope i dont fall ill again
xD

3. quarrel with polar's dad

I'LL WRITE IT ALL DOWN!
eehehehe
i'm in a great mood now~
watched '50 first dates' again
so happeh~
so here goes!

M for zakei, PD for polar's dad.

First conversation
M: morning polar! ^__^~!
PD: Hello pls dont early in the morning sms to polar u dont wan sleep we wan to sleep ok (later polar said he didnt mind being waken early.. )
M: Then what time of the day should i send smses? I usually wake around 8.. (it was 11 when i sent that sms)
PD: U wake up at this time is ur bussines dont ever sms early the morning ok or stop sms polar!
M: So from now on i sms him after 3pm can? Or you state me a time? ^__^
PD: Stop sms polar! He dont hve $ to pay hp or i will cut off the line n stop internet!

Second Conversation

After being kidnapped to ikea in the morning by my mom, i started smsing polar. we stopped after a while, then in the late afternoon i smsed him a casual sms, only to be greeted by his dada.

M: Lol~ my sisters, my guy cousin and i playing at ikea's kiddy corner xD just now we bully kids by throwing toy bats and spiders then now we just fooling around haha~ ^_^~
PD: (sorry i lost this reply.. but in summary:) your sister also dun like you smsing why dont you ever stop you stubborn girl! dont sms my son again! (i remember the stubborn girl thing xD)
M: Haha she was being overprotective ^-^ i think you are too.. I mean, experience is what makes a person's life rich, and although you may want to shelter your son, denying him this kind of experience is not good for him and may deprive his adolescence. So maybe you could be a little more open minded? (i spoke abit more chim to intimidate his dad :x)

there was a break in replies, and suddenly..~


third conversation
*call from PD* (its from my memory, but i trust its not that bad ^^)

PD: You zacky ah?
M: Beg your pardon?
PD: you zacky ah?
M: ah, ya, i'm ZA-KEI (it rhymes with the jap drink 'sake')
PD: okay, just now you sms me that sms, what language ah?
M: (i took awhile to interpret him :x) uhh english?
PD: *pause* i dont like you sms my son. from now on you don't sms my son, okay?
M: *non-commitally* sure
PD: ok. bye.
*puts phone down on me*
M: uh.. bye?

a few days later
fourth conversation
PD: dun contact my son! *yadda yadda* your'e very rude and stubborn, keep smsing my son! (i deleted this bunch of smses.. they all have the same meaning. its quite obvious later. and i was smsing him more than his son, ANYWAY.)
M: *stunned* i haven't been contacting him recently, cause i'm selling baked goods i.e. cookies and brownies. i spend my days slaving in the kitchen and i dont have any opprtunity to touch the computer, much less play. So please don't rant at me out of the blue please and thanks! ^-^
PD: (to the meaning of)dont talk back, you stubborn, rude girl! your mom very suay to give birth to you! i bet she hates you alot.
M: (didnt reply until much later) Today at dinner i casually asked my mom: 'mom, by any standards am i considered a rude person?' my mom looked at me and said: 'you, rude?' and burst out laughing, promt. i guess that proves how much i am rude and also how much my mom loves me ^-^~
PD: *no reply till today*

YAYS.
wasn't it entertaining
xD

4. audited
not much to say
pretty self explanatory..
more elaborated on the last point..
but i could've audited more..
family restricts me playing alot
sigh

i wish i wish i wish
i could play as much as i like
and not have any requirement
to study
NONE AT ALL

thats my one biggest wish in life so far.
oh wells.
wish only.
;____;


5. xmas pagent at church

great!
this is a cool opprtunity for me to rant about my church
its one of the few gothic churches in singapore
that is:
it has a pointy roof called a STEEPLE.
it dosent have air-con
but its always cool

so abt the xmas pagent thingy
we learnt so many songs
in 3 months
and i dun like the fat conductor
he conducts so noobishly
i'm quite sure i can conduct better.
just that i'm still a kid
so people wont care 2 hoots about me
and also,
he makes the song
SO RIDICULOUS
but i havee to sing it wanyway.
sighhy.

but also
i realised that
melvin is hitting on bryan
thats like totally gross la
melvin is like so old..
sure bryan is tall and manly
not to mention abit WIDE
but he can carry off the weight la haha
he dosent look fat.
just big
and melvin is like small and thin
and wears loud muscle tees
which make his tits stick out
ITS SO GROSS
eaughh
i wonder if he notices la.
and lately he's got a small pot-belly.
its quite funny.
i mean he used to be flat as a board
but now look!! small tummy!
xD
*cough* okay nvm
i'm pretty sure melvin's gay.
but oh well.
i said it before
and i'm saying again..
i just somehow got a thing for gay guys
haha.
its okay,
cause they wont like me back.
haha

and i tied leonards fringe!
it was long
and covering his eyes
so charlotte offered a hairband
and i tied his fringe, coconut style!
whee!!
SO CUTE
charlotte took a pic for posterity.
xD
damn cute la~!
ehehehe

OH OH
michael is scared of froggehs!
the other day,
leonard brought this frog pouch
made from real frog
i mean, it was once a frog.
so yeah
it even smelled like frog.
so i kept fiddling with it
and my jie was quite grossed
but it was cute.
and the smell didnt stick to your fingers.
so i fiddle, fiddle,
then michael kept commenting how it was gross
and ugly
and how he couldn't believe it was a real frog
and stuff.
so suddenly
in the midst of plying with it,
i flicked it at michael
then he squeaked
and hopped backwards
everyone laughed.
xD
poor michael.
he should get a life.
i mean, even i'm not scared of ickky-little-froggeh
and hes like almost 20.
BUT ITS OKAY
if there are any cockroaches on your way home
drop me a call
i'll gladly run over to squish em for ya~

6. eye thingy
eye machine
sposed to help improve your eyesight
i think its cool
works pretty well
so hopefully
by june next year,
i'll be running around spectacle-less
^__^
yays-y
just that my eyebags will be visible to the world
oh gosh.
then i'll have to find stuff to cure my eyebags.
zz
oh geez.
nvm so yeah
it cost a bomb tho,
700 bucks for that thingy
yeapp.
hope whole family can go spec-less soon
yippie~

OH OH.
and it improves my audidting performance
i can perf better
and chain more
and chance at faster speeds.
like the other day
i was using it regularly,
then i did 176 fm.
WHOO~
checkitout!
but the song sucks
:x
now i can pretty much do a 172 fm regularly
on a good day
now total did around 6-8 172 fms haha
not bad le wo!
at least for me haha.

7. wind
makes me fart
pisses me off
makes me feel like i'm pmsing
makes me feel ill on the whole
and kills my auditing performance
which is how i lost SO FEKKING MUCH dens
on doing 18-19 license
bleahhy.

8. new shelving
went ikea the other days
basically went there
smelt alot of bad air,
became quite sickly.
thank goodness dad had car.
but it also contributed to my sick feeling.
but if i sat bus i'd probably be sick and puking now.
so yeah.
went there 2 days consec
against my will
cause mom wanted to do shopping
and we found a secret at ikes
you know the lockers?
its something about them
and free income
i won't say more
its a family secret ^^
lol
if you can find out good for you.
^__^~!
and my shelves collapsed yesterday
shock of my life
but eventually were fixed
so yeah, its cheap
what else'd you expect?
lalala
theyre actually just wire trays
mounted on an open rack with wheels
yeahhs.

and the com tables now ensure the cpu is airy and cool
its good ^^

9. secret shopping
sennheiser earphones.
cheap ones
i'm not that rich to go buy their headphones
even though its REALLY tempting
*drool*
red sweater with cool design
for my jie ^^
wanted to wash but couldnt dry
wanted to hide but was found.
so yeah
abit saddenning but guess its still pretty good
wore once to bunk
made me really happy
^__^v~!~!
lols
bought cards also
no further details :x
i guess i also bought more knick-knacks
but slipped my mind

10. bunked alot
yupp!
secretly of course~
if my mom found out,
i'd be as dead as luncheon meat.
pawn-ed choir to go
was great period of time
love bunk at 10-11am
its quiet and cosy
*sigh*
my personal bunk.


ohh wells!
thats it for my post!
hope you enjoyed reading it~
had fun writing.

updated 'Wednesday, November 15, 2006' post. go read. i feel like such a harlot. cant bear to re-read it. eaugsh.

\\BEWARE!! SERIOUS POST!! NOT SOME NORMAL BER CRAP!! \\
if you're still willing to read, then i'll pay you 5cents.
so on to it!

image.

so many meanings to one word.
hmmzahs.
today, i shall talk on the meaning which is reflected in my tag
THAT image.
and i shall quit the lecturer style
of speaking too.
eaugh.
makes me sick.

so,
image!
its pretty tough today
to maintain an image
that both conforms to the soceity
and suits yourself.

look at me, for one
i don't particularly love my current image
but its all i've got,
and i cant think of any better image to fit me

if i had a choice
i would adopt a geek image
the computer gamer
i'll be happiest living that way
but only for a short period of time
cause pretty soon
people would start giving me wierd looks
and i'd start getting wierd labels

honestly, i wouldn't mind
but its a vanity thing i guess..
i just don't want to adopt that image
unless i'm at the top of it
and besides,
there are more crazy geek peeps out there
that i reckon i'd never be able to beat.
like even if i become a super gamer
there are still people like
vara
and fai
and crappyZAP
and so on..
i just cant dedicate my life to that
even though it'd make me really happy..

i'd probably die of liver cancer first..
runs in the family
sighh..


okay this is really off topic..
*snaps back to topic*

so yeah.
back to image.

i find my current ber image the most fitting image
its the only one that can balance between all my needs
and not just wants
there will always be times when i slip into the gamer image
but other commitments will force me to revert back
and besides,
i've taken many pains to cultivate this current image
much as i don't particularly like it

had a chat with a friend yesterday
and realised
that nothing ever comes perfect
eveything is always
painstakingly groomed
manicured
just so that we can be someone
we deep down really don't want to be.

IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT IN LIFE?

(i sound like some uncle/auntie with a midlife crisis..)

so yeah. i lost track of what was going on in my mind..
,___,
and this is getting too dark and dreary for my liking.
so
the end.
(of this post)



p.s. maybe i'll come alter or delete this later? i feel pretty shitty now..
great i just made myself depressed for no particular reason.
lol.. *winces*

i'm attatched.


to my underwear.
lol kidding.
i mean, i am but
i'm not meaning it that way

i think i'm kinda attatched
so that entirely contradicts the previous post
wahhahahaha
but oh wells
its probably like..
what do the american's call it? true love.
ah yes. i feel pissed at myself now for ever thinking of the word *looks down*
a summer fling. how could i do that.
and they guy i'm attatched to dosen't know of this blog even if it was a summer fling, saying it out loud makes it all the more despicable. eaughhhh.
so yeah.
i can feel free to post. i'm totally guilt-stricken now.. and i feel like a bitch too..
whoop-dee-doo .___.
don't tell him if you know
if you don't, nevermind.

so yeah.
we actually met before
and sms each other daily
and send hugs and kisses
and call each other
just to hear each others voice.
And we even planned to meet
and play
at bunk
and go for a show after that
but it got cancelled
cause his mom found out
lol
.__.

oh yesh.
and he's fond of that face too
.__.
xD
its cute.
don't deny it.
*cough*

anyway,
we plan to go gymming someday
he says he can lift 100kg
i want to see~
and if he can lift 100kg
surely he can lift me~
i'm but merely
45kg.
^___^~
and im sposed to teach him how to do pull-ups
i can try.
he can go do.
:x
he should be able to.
^___^

kk.
i kinda sound wierd.
i dont sound like me
ecks oh wells.
maybe someday i'll disclose more juicy bits of
gossip info
but for today
i'll just leave it at here.
^__^~
gniteys

i never ever thought about boys my age before.
so now when the thought crosses my mind
i find it irrational
and in a way
humourous.
at most,
i would evaluate a person.
looks,
voice,
charisma.
that kind of stuff.
but i wouldn't think of getting a boyfriend.

and all this is because of a book i'm reading.
its about this girl who visit a shrink
because of emotional probs
she cant deal with,
about boyfriends
and cliques
and typical teenage crap.
but i feel i'm lacking that,
therefore my choice of
lousy book.

*coughs*

in any case

if i ever have a boyfriend,
not male acquaintence,
he must posses these qualities.
or live up to my expectations.
of which i will be mentioning below.

the list goes:
01. mature (i cant stand immature guys. e.g. those 15 and under. most of them anyway.)
02. caring. (all girls want this, i suppose..)
03. must be god-loving. (better yet if he's a catholic. ^^)
04. tolerant to mess (however, if he's overly messy, then its a no-no)
05. hardworking (i swear i'll find a job i enjoy. i'll work hard too.)
06. be a computer freak, as well as a gamer. (like me. ^^)
07. share at least 2 more interests with me.
08. be able to cook (this is not considered as part of a shared interest)
09. and bake (this isn't either, this is a necessity to me. ^^)
10. is willing to do housework should the need arise (like should we have kids)
11. does not splurge. (i'll rather save for a rainy day.)
12. is willing to save 15-20% of his monthly salary on a regular basis. (i intend to do this too, when i get a job. (: )
13. is practical. (e.g. won't buy me small senseless gifts when courting, would rather get a good watch over a painting, that kind of stuff.)
14. is minimalistic (i like things simple.)
15. has a decent fashion sense. (i'm not saying extravagant, but he must know how to dress for the occasion.)
16. has a good mind in handling money. (or else it'll all fly away. like what my dad did. *remembers the days when we had a car* .___.)
17. in my opinion, he must look decent to good. no need to look stunning. (but if does, well.. its a bonus. )
18. must be taller than me. MUST. (i'm already short.. so if he's shorter than me, then our kids will be tragic.)
19. must have good parents, or (hopefully) not come from a broken background (this should have ranked higher. but then again..)
20. cannot be sissy. (actually, a bit is okay. sensitive guys are better than MCPS.)
21. (hence,) cannot be an MCP. (actually, it depends on the extent of MCP-ness. a bit is okay.)

i guess this is quite a long list,
but it thereabout sums up my perfect boyfriend.
and i didn't even mention stuff like
'being a good kisser'
or
'must have a hot bod'
or whatever other prissy girls say
so yeah.
i'm not your average girl.
sure, eye-candy is nice.
all candy is nice.
but then again,
i've never liked candy since a kid.
so and therefore.

now another fancy list.
this ones about the guys i've shortlisted
who may make potential boyfriends
for me.
and i spent eons thinking
over who qualifies
and who fails.
so here geos..
(i'll probably cancel out half the list later,
but for now i'll leave it)
and i'm honest in what i'm writing,
SO DONT LAUGH
>__<
really!
potential boyfriends, in random order.

01. polarbearice (pending)
02. leonard (but he's pretty childish in my opinion)
03. sng (already taken. and too old..)
04. solidsnake (old again.. and probably taken .___.)
05. OH FACK. I'M TOO YOUNG TO BE THINKING OF BOYS.

RAWR!
*bites a chunk of wood from the table*
THIS IS KILLING ME.
i cant do this shit

I
DON'T
EVEN
LIKE
GUYS

RAWRRRRR

-the feckking end of this post-

im gonna change my blogskin, then make a random post, on a random topic that i never thought of until today. thats why its random. but its no longer that random since i already said im gonna post something random. nevermind. just read the next post.

Havent posted in 20 years, sorry for that.
Lets see. i dont know what to post.
any ideas?
hm
got one!
here goes:
firstly,
i picked up audition
YAY
i'm a freedom 11 as of today
but
i'm taking a hiatus for the exams.
(thank adeline for teaching me that word)
quit maple
or possibly quitted
see how it goes.
maybe one day i'll hate auditing
then i'll revert to maple
but that day would be far far away
i think audit is so much more sensible than maple
its SKILL BASED
for one
and maple is brainless pressing of one key over and over again
if that even makes sense to you
but i'm pretty depressed when i audit
cause i cant 8key chance for all songs cept whiroo and loving you(easy)
i cant do level 9 for freestyleY
sob
that means no finish ever.
and my max consec perfs was only 11
sighh.
i didnt even take ss
lazy to make into siggy
sian
i wanna go for another audit outing
i wanna i wanna
do you wanna? do you do you wanna wanna?
DUH! I WAN!
sob
audit rocks me socks.
and i also thereabout quit pangya le.
cant play that well anymore anyway.
i dont like the game.
its too static
only 1 mode of playing:
shoot the ball
unlike audit
I LOVE BBOY4!!!
but when i'm tired, sometimes i cant remb properly
and bboy8 rocks.
just get half the stuff and its 200exp right off the hook for you
funky
but its like alot harder
sigh
i wanna aduit.
even though im on hiatus.
EAUGH.
*rubs face tiredly with cold hands*
this sucks
i want to run down to PCBunk and try it out.
bleahh.
and me and yinxue are like thereabout not friends le.
long complicated story which i'll never blog about.
it'll get too opiniated
and i'll make myself sound like i'm the victim
or i'll put people down
or i'll be not just
thats the main ideaa.
so no blogging on that.
i dont mind being cordial friends
or even acquaintences
but she totally ignores me
bleah
suit herself
i've got other friends anyway~~
lol
now i'm being bitchy.
eaugh.
i'm in such a sian mood
i'll probably do well for emaths test later on
and i'm banned from audit
according to mom
so from now on if i ever wanna play,
i'll probably run down to pcbunk.
who dosent like extra exp and dens? wahaha
cya~
gtg for chem.

Ber, you're a Sleep Iq Middle High!

Sleep IQ




less sleep-smart more sleep-smart


On the sleep-smart scale, you get a B+! You've got good technique, and your sleep habits definitely make the grade. But there's still room for improvement. Read below for the answers to the test, and to find out which areas could use a little work.
Do you get up and go to bed at the same time each day?
Routine is the main ingredient for a good night's sleep. If you go to bed and wake up at the same time every day (even on weekends) your body will begin to anticipate your sleeping schedule. You'll find yourself getting sleepy right around bedtime, and waking up effortlessly in the morning. You might even begin to wake up before your alarm.

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
How much sleep should you get a night? There is no standard answer to this question. Most people average about 6 to 8 hours of sleep a night. But sleep requirements vary from person to person. What works for one person might not work for another. Your optimal sleep time is the amount that leaves you feeling rested and alert all day long. Find your optimal time by altering your sleep time in 30 minute increments, and tracking your performance the following day.

Do you exercise regularly?
Regular exercise is a great way to improve the quality of your sleep. Exercise aids sleep by reducing stress, increasing oxygen consumption, and improving circulation. Studies have shown that individuals who walk more than six blocks per day have 1/3 fewer sleep disturbances than people who walk less. When those blocks are walked briskly, sleep disturbances are reduced by half.

Do you exercise within one hour of going to bed?
Mid-afternoon exercise can improve your sleep, but exercising right before bed gets your energy up and may throw off your normal sleeping patterns. It's best to avoid engaging in strenuous activities late in the evening or night. Try to get your daily exercise in at least three hours before bedtime.

Describe your room temperature.
If your room is too hot or too cold, you aren't going to sleep well. Cold hands and feet equal a poor night's sleep, so it's best to keep warm. But don't keep things too toasty. Studies have shown that a slight drop in body temperature near bedtime can help induce sleep. A cool room and a warm blanket are your best bet for a good night's sleep.

Sound and light levels.
Usually, a dark, quiet room is most conducive to sleep, but preferences may vary. Some people might be afraid of the dark. Others might find certain noises and sounds comforting. Experiment with sound and light levels to find the combination that is best for you.

Do you read, watch TV, or work in bed?
It is a good idea to use your bed only for sleep and other intimate activities. Using your bed solely for these two tasks gets you into a groove, bolsters your sleeping patterns, and helps you fall asleep faster. Working, watching TV and, to a lesser extent, reading in bed can confuse your body and break the stride of your sleeping routine. When you get under the covers, your brain won't know if it's supposed to wake-up or shut down.

Do you often eat dinner less than hour before bedtime?
It's not easy to fall asleep on an empty stomach. If you're hungry right before bed, a light snack is a good idea. A large meal, however, will probably keep you tossing and turning all night. Dairy products and turkey contain tryptophan, a natural sleep-inducer. A half sandwich and a glass of milk are a good prescription for sound sleeping.

Do you smoke?
Nicotine, like caffeine, is a stimulant that can make it difficult to fall asleep. Nicotine may also be linked to problems waking up. If you are a chronic smoker, nicotine cravings in the middle of the night may cause you to sleep fitfully. Quitting smoking may cause more sleep problems at first, but your sleep will improve in the long run.

Nightcap before bed.
Alcohol consumed at bedtime might help you fall asleep faster, but studies have shown that alcohol consumed within an hour of bedtime actually disrupts your sleep later in the night. You may sleep fitfully, wake from dreams, and have trouble falling back asleep.

Your type is the Artiste

Creative. Sensitive. A bit offbeat. Your type is the Artiste, a unique guy who knows how to express himself in many ways, whether it's through words,music, or attire. You're attracted to his unconventional ways and his remarkable talents. He doesn't feel compelled to abide by society's norms.He believes that individuality is the key to happiness, and everything he does is a reflection of his "inner self." You fall head-over-heels for such confidence and style. Whether he's playing a song he wrote for just you or writing you a love letter, this guy knows how to make you feel special. He's in touch with his feminine side and doesn't need to assert his masculinity to feel manly. If we were to paint a picture of your future, the Artiste would definitely be part of it!

lets start with the ramblings.
i realise
i write alot.
type, actually.
i type more than i write.
i can type without looking at the keyboard
and still type accurately
quickly
but of course, i type faster still if i look at the keyboard
somehow it inspires me to write
type
anyway

i read a couple of my old posts and
i realised
im an interesting blogger
grins widely
ego boost!
xD

*cough*

and i learnt
typing this way
makes reading easier
less heavy on the eyes
and overall its just more creative

and.
im gonna cash some maple stuff
i decided already
this is what im gonna cash on
transparent gloves, $2.80
panicky facial expression, 1.5
headphone bandanna, 5 bucks
(the most expensive item in my list)
old school uniform top, 3
red trainer pants, 1.8
ragged korean shoes, 2
moustache, 2
rose, 3
total, $21.10
isnt it a waste of money
but it makes me happy
oh well.
ill fake a birthday and hope someone gives and item
probably they will
probably not
maybe i'll even cash another card
to reset moms skills
then she'll be more pro.
xDDDD

i also fell in love with pangya
head over heels
the way im saying it is so embarrassing
><
goodness.
BUT
pangya is SO COOL!
(that sounds cheesy)
*hops around scatterring flower petals*
pangya pangya!
lets introduce pangya!!
its a golf game
like gunbound
just TONS funner.
did you like go =_=;;
xD
i BET you did
anyway
thats my typical reaction to games
FUN games
not just any game
so yeah

AND AND!!
ON TO REAL MALES!
I LOVE KUROFYE!!
I KNOW!!
I KNOW ITS WRONG!!
BUT ITS SO FUNNY!!
GAY-ISM IS SO FUNNY!!
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHA
IM MEAN!
I KNOW!!
but kurofye rocks
they rock my socks
they are probably my favourite-est gay pairing
REALLY!
okay,
THEY ARE
they are my favourite-est gay pair
CAUSE
fye is so GAY!
BOTH
happy-gay
and
GAY-gay
AND
HES SO DELICATE!
that sounds wrong
terribly wrong
BUT THATS WHY I LOVE FYE!!
AHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHA
*bursts out into the HIGH ber laughter*
(the one which scares yinxue)
AND AND!
THERES TONNES MORE BUT I CANT SAY
LIKE HE HAS A HORRIBLE SCARRED PAST
PLUS PLUS!
OTHER STUFF I CANT SAY!
OTHERWISE YOU'LL GET SCARED AND RUN AWAY
SO.
ill stop here for fye-chama
and onto Kuro-pon!
Kuro-sama
IS SO HOT
hes like the ultimate manly man
xDDDD
hes so MASCULINE
and STRONG
and GRUFF
not to mention he has those kind of HOT TEMPERED GUY
who cant stand GAY FEMININE guys
but occasionally, to a select few,
hes gentle
and caring
and well, just sexy in his own manly manner
THAT KIND!!!!!!!!!
THATS WHY THEY ARE SOOO SUITED FOR EACH OTHER!!
*bursts out into the HIGH ber laughter again*
if i dont stop, your screen will crack.

so on to my foot.
(i bet you have ???(s) above you head)
but anyway
lets start from the start start of my foot, shall we?
we (my family) went to crystal jade kitchen
to eat dinner
with my aunt from japan
so we took a train down
(i wont tell you which outlet. too malu le)
then
after we alighted the train,
we headed for the escalator to the exit
which went down
but it was crowded
so me and my kor decided to take the stairs
so we took the stairs
and my kor, being the chlidish army boy he is
decided to run down the stairs,
weaving in and out of the crowd
naturally
i felt that i could beat the hulk of a brother
to running down the stairs
so i ran after him
NATURALLY
i was more nimble
so i almost caught up to him
so at the last 3 steps i hopped, wanting to beat him
UNFORTUNATLY
THE SOTONG ME
FELL
i fell prostrate onto the ground
and chipped my fingernail
not like it matters, but it was something i noticed
cause the chipped bit poked me
and it was irksome
so anyway, i was lying there stunned
for a few moments
with this running in my head
SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT
I FELL AGAIN!!!
WILL I SPRAIN MY ANKLE?
so stay tuned to my blog, to find out wether berenice really sprains her ankle or not!
just kidding
of course,
SHE DOES
otherwise how do i continue my foot story?
BAKA!
*cough*
yup
so i tried to stand up,
by supporting myself with the rail
but as my ankle was injured,
i couldnt
then my brother noticed me
along with the rest of my family
OH THE EMBARRASSMENT
*shrivles up*
i couldnt walk la!
even applying pressure onto my foot
HURT CRAPLOADS
eventually
my brother carried my
piggyback-style
out of the MRT station and to Tampines Mall
*shrivles into a small black pickle-looking like thing*
then i happenned to joke about getting crutches
so my ovverreactive dad
DID EXACTLY THAT
he went to the INFORMATION counter
to try and get
CRUTCHES
my brother freaked out and got my dad back
but my dad
apparently sufferring from memory loss or something
CLEAN forgot where crystal jade kitchen was
so he told me to stand in the lift lobby
on my left foot
and
WAIT
while he ran around the mall
searching for crystal jade kitchen
which we all knew was at basement 1
obviously
we all got pissed and
when he came back we were informed he ran
ALL THE WAY
to the top floor and
to the base-est basement
AND HE DIDNT FIND CRYSTAL JADE
so he smartly went to ask a guy at the counter
who randomly pointed to the 2nd floor
i got so pissed
i just hopped off on my left foot
with my kor and my jie
to crystal jade
(which is VERY tiring btw
especially if you typically dont use your left foot at all)
then when i got there
the table wasnt ready
so i sat in a random chair outside till it was
the dinner had nothing to do with my leg, so ill skip it
after that i got a ride home from my uncle
(my relatives were all worried craploads over my foot
even my aunt from Japan)
._.
then after that (it was one day before May Day)
i rested.
AHAHAHAHA
its retarded but true
then on May Day itself,
i went to see the physician
i hop-hopped my way over to the place
some 4 blocks away
with my mom.
but halfway there
my dear untrained left leg
gave out on me
so my mom hailed a taxi driver
who was passing by
to drive us over
(it was barely 100m)
he gave us a free ride
SO KIND OF HIM!
but i was in a sour mood
so i just thanked him briefly
CMON!
walking 4 blocks usually takes me less than 5 minutes
and i took practically 1/2 an hour
my mom sure was patient
anyway
the physician, lets call her aunty Jenny
saw my foot
so she wanted to heck for broken bones
but my foot was too swollen
(lol)
so she couldnt identify anything
(my foot was swollen both left and right, so no ankle bone on either side)
she didnt know what to do
so she just gave me a swell-reducing acupuncture
it was 5 needles
(ill label the picture later.)
it was fun!
and exciting
in a pinprick painful sorta way
after the needles went in
she put my foot under this heating lamp for 1/2 an hour
to let the heat do something to the pressure points
then she took the needles out
the putting in is more painful than the pulling out
in fact,
the pulling is is practically feelingless.
then i was carried halfway home
(by my brother again)
after resting a while
at the medical hall
after that,
i just rested the two days at home
playing lots of PangYa
and Maple
and doing practically nothing
in the meantime
my mom put this poultice prescribed by the old doctor at the medical hall
at first
my mom put ginger
but it made my foot FLARE UP
in
RASHES
and those God-awful rashes
were so God-dammed
ITCHY
and they didnt go away
i was searching for ways to soothe them
but everything was only temporary
the next application
i omitted the ginger
it helped quite a bit
but the rashes were wtill there
the next application (the third day)
the rashes came back
so i used the soothing balm (Zam-Buk)
it helped
that day too,
i went to school
and eventually
because of the smell
and the
ITCHYNESS
i peeled off the poultice
and bundled it in paper
and chucked it in my bag
then i went to wash my feet
(which was the absolute wrong thing to do according to my mom)
and the
ITCH
wasnt that bad
also on that day
i took taxi to and fro school
cause i couldnt walk
ALLLLLL
the way in
from PP
i arrived in school at 7.30am
it was funny
cause the teachers didnt scold me or anything
and Mr Khoo asked me wwether he could step on my foot
o_O
of course NOT!!
(i knew he was kidding. he had to be)
then after that, i stopped using the poultice
for the simple reason:
i had no more herbs to make into a pultice
oh yeah
i make the poultice myself
i get the herbs
add a tablespoon of water
use a motar and pestle
grind it into this pasty thing
add another powder
add white rice wine
(which is quite fun to drink)
and heat up
then smear it over affected area
ohoh
another side story
my sister stomped on my toes on the 2nd day
she thought i was faking it
then the blood vellels popped or something
then now my toes are quite heavily bruised
and another side note
my mom said my foot
looks like that of a corpses
she had the privilige to compare it to that of a suicide victims
and it really looked alike
thank goodness i wasnt there
so anyway
after the poultice was gone
my mom applied this lotion called zheng gu shui
literally meaning: bone setting lotion
so yeah
then she wrapped it up again
and the rashes sprouted out in the multitude
i think some fault of that is attributed to air conditioning
thank goodness i sleep in a fan-blown air circulated room
so i just smeared a hell lot of zam-buk on my foot
and the rashes arent itchy
but the skin flaked yesterday
cause i was clawing at it
I COULDNT HELP IT
so yeah.
the swelling kept reducing
save the day i went to school
so now my ankle looks respectable
my foot has CONTOURS
so for that im extremely happy.
:)))

Mold can grow on the underside of toiletbowl covers,
on metal sliding doors,
on glass
on the toothbrush holder
and more (probably)
Grout can accumulate in grooves until its about .8-1cm thick
Bacteria-ified soap works best
it eats up all the dirt
and chunks of it fall away
the hair was stuck in 1 position so long i had to scrape it off
i dont feel like typing any more
Bratz is rotting my brain
but at least the toilet looks respectable now.

this march hols sucks. bleah. so much homework. ive been slogging all week and i STILL have chinese and ss. bleah bleah bleah... ugh. can't bring myself to complete it. ugh. again. ugh. ugh. and choir camp is just like a bunch of choir rehersals.

i think
the only fun thing this hols
my injury
bike collision
chipped tooth
scratched knee
scraaaped elbow
swollen hip
and jaw (kinda obviously)
went for dental
got chipped bit plucked out
(it was stuck to my gum)
doc said i was lucky
not half a tooth gone
@@
wanted to keep the bit BUT
it was thrown away
poor unfortunate tooth
but the gap was filled with some filling material
and there was anesthesia
relax.
and all the injuries were on the left side of my body
except my neck
hurts all over
now everythings 2/3s healed
yay?
except hip
1/2 healed
scab on elbow is hard to maintain
gets peeled easily
hooked on random stuff
banged on random stuff
scab layer thin thin thin
sobs

thats about all for the fun stuff

and sakae sushi was fun
ate and ate
24/+ normal plates
7 red plates
1 sushi set
1 cup of green tea
5 cups of plain water (refillable)
the normal plates stacked above the belt
our limit was the lamp
we actually wanted to try eat enough to stack the plates to hit it
but we couldnt
and the fried tofu
ROCKED
ROCKED
ROCKED
it was SOOO soft
everything else wasnt bad either
all the red plated stuff rocked more
(obviously. ^^)
except the bunch of sashimi
it was nice
but raw fish still dosent tempt my palate
and i didnt eat wasabi
i ate a bit
and teared alot
so i kinda gave up
dont know how dad and da jie ate the '5x HOT' wasabi
o_0
mom made this paste from soy sauce and wasabi
and she dipped EVERYTHING into it
so scary
(i tried my wasabi from her soya sauce dish)
belicia was hyped up
she kept kneeling on the seat

then after that we ate ice cream
the GOOD kind
it cost around $5 for a cup of 3 flavours
mom got 2 3 flavor and 1 2 flavour
belgium chocolate
raspberry (sorbet)
tartufo(?)(not sure of spelling but it tasted like smashed ferrero rocher ice cream)
yoghurt
dark chocolate
hazelnut
butterscotch
vanilla
all of them
ROCKED MY SOCKS
yeah
and cause we were eating it so heartily beside the shop
we attracted attention
and got business for the store
ALOT in fact
in fact
a queue formed so we had to move elsewhere
so we went to the nail polish area
and eventually bought navy blue and pearly pink
both semi translucent

and i just painted my nails
the nail poilish is fairly good
navy blue on fingernails makes the nail look rotten
ill learn the lesson
maybe bright blue will look better
hmm
zah

and i picked up survival project and haribo
fairly fell in love with both
but now the novelty has worn off
theyre both nice
but not addictive any more
but i need fire spirits
wanna cash a bit
dont dare
lol
maple lost its appeal
but i want to catch up
to mom
lol
kk
ill stop rambling.
nites!
nites~
nite..s

You are ESPRESSO!
Very clever, intellectual and wise, you are always

full of knowledge and ideas. You are usually

the soloution to everyone's problems.


Which Cinnamoroll character are you?
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lovely dress. ^^


This Giorgio Armani dress is ur dream come true...

It shows off ur romantic side aswell as ur

fairy like personnality...


What does ur dream designer dress look like?*beautiful pics, GIRLZ only...
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i like! but i seem to get rather common stuff. haha. not that i mind actually.


You're sexy because you're creative.

PROS: You never have any trouble expressing
yourself through artwork, and many people
envy the fact that you are so talanted at
music/drama/art/whatever. You also love the
outdoors, as it gives you inspiration.

CONS: Since you're so creative, you can also get
'creative breakdowns' and you can get
pretty depressed or angry super easy.


How are you sexy? (anime pictures)
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click me




PUPUS ARE CUTE. ^^ And they look like YinXue. now click the link. ^^

YinXue is such a genius. ^^ but im feeling sadistic. thats why i can smile. ^^= now gogo! click the link!


click me

im actually applying a SKIN. for once. @@ oh well. my brain is kinda fried, so i guess this will have to do. and cinnamoroll is CUTE. DONT DENY IT.

THE SKY HAS FALLEN!! I NEED TO REDO MY BLOG!! FIRSTLY: chagne the WHOLE colour scheme. CAUSE. i screwed my old one. which was actually quite an eyesore. OHNO. *shrieks* notime notime! gotta cook cyta~

you can compare the post dates, so you should know how reliable i am.

I KNOW YOU KNEW THAT I WANTED MY BLOG TO DIE. BUT. on the verge of inspiration, i shall conduct a small scale revamp for my dearie blog. okay its not dear, but oh heck, ill just conduct it to (hopefully) help polish my rip and paste skills and well as (hopefully) sharpen my other basic html stuff.

and in case you didnt know

my crush ended like 3 days after i had a crush.

that crush is a smoker (or at least he hangs out with a bunch of them) so damn him to hell.

and im attatched.

for people who said that my blog was well, dying, here! here! this is proof that it ISNT dying.

and also, dont ask who im attatched to

cause i wont reply

and ill just ignore you

and ill most likely turn cold

which = fan lian

which i guess not many of you will like

so, leave my stuff to me.

ill tell you who im attatched to,

all in due time

so thats it for the post!

hope you like the new pic~ <3

lols. i have a crush. and im making it public. oh wells. might as well post it on fox news, cnn, channel newsasia and the like. you get ther rough gist.

BUT i like Aloysious!! xD He is SO cute!! i know that sound incredibly cliche and all but HE IS. And he plays drums SO WELL. And he is such a nice guy!! With such a charming smile!! (dont think cheesy scenes, if you do, well.. i am. but they didn't happen. so dont think about it. ) And his voice ROX!! Although it IS a BIIIIIIIT high for a guy BUT. Its nice. Leonard's voice is still nicer BUT he lacks looks. Hehx. (bias) If Leonard was shuai-er, i would SO have fallen for him. But he isnt, so i'll stop hallucinating. >< Back to Aloy. SADLY, he is UNTOUCHABLE. Like Deeksha and the elves. *snickers* sorry private joke. For one, there are loads of other girls zhui-ing him as well, and for another, my da jie is ALSO zhui-ing him. I think. And im not particularly pretty, and i dont dress until very AA, and i DONT FLIRT. So i'll just rant. :<

Berr, your Super IQ score is 110

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.

The way you think about things makes you a Concrete Thinker. This means your intelligence is grounded in a clear understanding of what is happening around you. In situations where others are confused, things are crystal clear to you. In addition, you have the unusual combination of strong verbal and numerical skills. You are able to solve equations and then use your verbal skills to explain those solutions to others.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Concrete Thinker? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Concrete Thinker. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

IVE GOT A BLISTER ON MY BUTT!!!!!!! T-T

Want to walk in someone else's shoes?
Comfort Clog

Pass that cup of Chai and hand over a thick ol' cafe brownie. You're as laid back as a Comfort Clog. Whether shuffling around the house looking for home improvement projects or hooking up with friends for spur of the moment plans, you're pretty easygoing. Because you're so receptive to last-second engagements, people tend to keep you on their A-lists—even when you haven't seen them in a while. Sometimes you might prefer to keep your social options open—no need to commit too early. But that's not to say you lean toward indecision (except when you're confronted with a large menu at your favorite restaurant). All in all, you're happy to approach life with a firm step. You just don't want life to be too firm with you.


lol. i found this funny. personally i would have prefferred 'city sneakers' but oh wells. the description suits better than the pic. nites ya'll folks. i'll probably ramble a hwole lot some other day. its the english exams tomorrow followed by the rest i the following weeks. weeks. hahas. nites neways. i need good inspiration

Just did a bunch of Tickle Tests. Here are some of the results. :)
(i'll put them in seperate posts.)

What Color Is Your Aura?


We don't need a psychic to tell us that you're giving off a Gold vibe. You couldn't ask for a better color — a glistening gold aura is as good as it gets. A lively blend of yellow and orange, gold people are happy, playful, energetic, sensitive, and generous. Always up for adventure, you'd give a friend in need the shirt off your back. You're spiritual, too — all those halos in old paintings aren't colored gold by coincidence. Almost childlike in the carefree, joyful way you live your life, you're popular and outgoing with your large circle of friends. Chances are you're so full of light and energy that you sometimes find it hard to sit still and chill out. Instead, you're constantly looking for excitement, no matter how risky or impulsive the occasion. Happy-go-lucky and always laughing, you truly are as good as gold.

If i add music to my dear bloggie, it will positively die. Worse than it currently is. And I really do wish Joy could finish her chappie and let me link over to hers. Bleahx. I wish i could lead a more glamourous computer-based/book-writing life. SIGHS. Like Royston Tan. What a lucky guy. SIGHS MORE. Im tired, got El test tomorrow, eyelids drooping, but i dont feel like sleeping. how? lol. dont ask me. i wanna do the maple animation. but the dates over. hahas. i'll do it someday for fun. and ill do animation for this blog too. those mouseover thingys. i'll do rainclouds. yeah yeah. if i can find the time. i owe kaiyin one too. ^________________^ nities. sleepies sweeties.

I Officially Hate This Asshole Person Called Jou Wei Kay

ohs? ive been having rather good days of late. aha. aha. aha. i strongly urge everybody out there to read my fictionpress work and review! the i/d is lspeakl. anyways, ive been a good yet horrible person of late. but sadly i dont think i'll relate it here. after all, this IS a public place! Hahas. But its gotta do with Anakin Skywalker the HANDSOME SHUAI JI LE pathetic freak and Darth Vadar who is SO ULTRA cool. I lovvveee Anakin! Especially when he turns evil and has wonderfully dark-sided eyes!!! *squeals* im twisted yeah. Okayyy. lessee. i basically just split the beans. OW. There screaming in pain. o.0 okay okay. im good, cuz of late i keep helping out people. Just for the heck of it. And i lovvee vatican expo!!!! i love it to bits and pieces. i love it to smithereens. Especially when the fucking smoker is not around. He oughta go fuck a frozen piranah. *grins evilly* all smokers should. and and. im in a good mood, and im gna write this novel. like christopher palini or whoever the guy who wrote eragorn. ERAGORN!!!! how could i forget!!!!~~! *squeals at 10000 decibels and promptly shatters all glass in the vincinity of 2km except my specs and computer screen* i simple loooveee eragorn! (the book) and i absolutely adore everything about, around, and related to the book! *squeals even more and jumps about in a crazed fashion throwing scraps of paper with 'eragorn' scribbled rather furiously on it into the air* kays. i'll end it here. im rambling. alot. JA NE!

okay. so i fell like blogging again. ^---^ its good news isn't it. aniwaes, heres todays news:

went back to school, for the usual stuff. had this talk on social workers etc. was quite gd. =) followed by some sucky nkf thingy. then ipw. ms ng delayed the visit to dakota cres to 1 week later. ONE WEEK. =.= anythingg. then yanyao made some jelly fish things and we basically crapped around with em' yinxue left without me. saddenning. but that was good in a sense ^-------------------------------^ XDDDDDDDDDDD yeah you know why?

then here comes the interesting part. cuz after that, deeksha invited me to watch 'constantine'!!! HA! *muakkkks* to Deeksha! hahahahhaha! okay okay. so i thought mom wld neva allow me to watch constantine in my life. but somehow, she loosened up, and let me watch! HA! so i went..

heres the hilarious part: i took 72 the wrong direction!!! ha! i couldnt believe it. and i didnt even know until Deeksha told me! keke. and she told me tt only after the show. gosh i felt stupid. anyways, then from yio chu kang mrt station, i had to make my way baaaaaaaaaaaack to tampines. great huh. and i spent my journey on north-south line looking at this guy and girl fondling each other on the train opposite me. (i was standing at the train door corner. they were standing opposite) and deeksha kept calling and smsing me. haw haw haw. in the end, i made it there just on time, and explained myself to deeksha (minus the wrong direction part cuz i didnt know i took e bus wrong direction) while rushing off to e cinema. wonderful. then i missed the first part of constantine. *SOBS* anything.. so now i'll write 'constantine the summary' so that i can remember how it goes! ^-------^

im hyper.
im mad.
im crazy.
somebody just fuck me.
wahahaha.
im sadistic.
im perverted.
im in love.
somebody fuck me.
damn it.
the world.
its just so fucking crazy.
its driving me fucking mad.
im just fucked up.
wahahaha.
.unstable.

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
so much more aware

Sunday
Yeppx. went to Lee cuzzins' house. All now so tall, so muscular, so shuai etcetc. (recomending them ;) ) but anyways, now chi new year season, so i help bake cookies lor! XP yum~~! i helped roll some 'golden pillow' then pressed the cashew nuts into the cashew nut biscuit pastry. omg. wad crapp. lol. but they canot play anime on their com.. so saddenning.. BUT, me and da jie played bomberman. shuang! so long neva play like childhood agn. *goes all starry eyed* Overall nice day.

Today
School lor. Nothing much. Chye met the tour ppl, and dressed SO not-chai ish. bleahhhx. But overall okay. still need to research for IPW.. haix. =+l

oo. today was pretty okay. thats an understatement. okay. HM.

In the morning, went for the CPU thing, very very fruitful. we're gonna 'work heart play hard' and its mostly community services. KEWL. And our main part is entertainment. in other words, were specialising in dance, music. cool huh? ;)) that means we learn to dreakdance, line dance, ballet dance.. LOL, no ballet. hahaha But we did well. *nods head* CPU rocks!~

Then in the afternoon was basically slacking, waiting to play Maple. In the end, B4 cr8ed a new account, dagger theif. SWEET. =+) Our lovable little squiggy is growing up~! anyways, in the end played a bit, not fruitful.. haixx.. saddenning. maple~!~~~

In the evening, mom and B1 complained abt messy room. agn. then in the end my mom talked(ing) to mi aunty, aka her elder sis, and as usual the topic somehow averted to B4 and how pitiful she was and stuff, and mom ended up crying. AGAIN. its getting so stale lor! cry once, expected. cry twice, get it over with. cry 3 times, get it over with. cry 4 times? OMG stop it. =.= guhh.

Yinxue and i crapped somewhat over the phone.. gotta do online stuf. Nites angels!

haha. always being lag. kekeke.
randomness first

hugs and kisses
your amazing bed-hair
everything
like a flash flood
you swept me away
too fast
all that is mine is yours
you own me
life confusing
contradicting
psychomatic
truly madly deeply
ill be your wish
ill be your dream
ill be your fantasy
ill be your hope
ill be your love
a new beginning
a reason for living
ill make a wish send it to heaven
i want to stand with you on a mountain
we both know
its better if we just let it go
i just wanna be loved
by someone like you
you take my breath away
steal my heart
kill me
hahahhahahahahhahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahhahahhhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaa
okay
that was NOT part of randomness
as you can see im clearly having a crush
pretty major
meep~!
you saw nothing
nothing

randomness ends here

thursday
yesterday i stayed back with yinxue and completed one set of notes. p3/4 science. wahahaha! we ROCK. so it just proves, being in common ground reduces mental strain. on both of us. and kaiyin dropped out. but i pretty much dont care. but yinxue cares about it like its the WHOLE world woth of important matters. o.0'''''''''''''' you go girl.. yeppx. other than that, nothing much lor.. haha but i did 8 postcards for my dear love. hahax =P

today
We got info on IPW. WRRAHAHAHAHA! IPW ROCKS. its SO good. ROXY. yepp. gna do it later shiok sia~ i love IPW! aniwaes, also nothing much today. choir was fun. had a wedge of watermelon for recess, and oo. and jogging was quite cool also. we jogged 2.5 rounds. wahahax. and other classes jogged 3 rounds. whahaha!~ 2S roxy` kekeke. i think if my obsession keeps running, i may end up doing drastic stuff. i wont mention here. cuz anybody may read. but still i suppose i should write. imay end up k****** or p******** to my love..

screams at all the angels while blushing hotly

Then it hit me from nowhere, everything about me and you
7 days and 7 nights of thunder
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder
You're like a summer rain, washing my doubts away

Nothing in this world could be as nice as you and I
How could we be wrong?
Now i turn to you like i always do
When i close my eyes i think of you
Such a lonely girl such a lonely world
When I close my eyes i dream
Of you
7 years and 50 days
So then what do you see?
So many years, so many days,
And i still sing my song

Im not a perfect person
Theres many things i wish i didnt do
I never meant to do those things to you
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
And the reason is you

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
I am Vindicated
I am wrong
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
Cut to mirror your intentions
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away

Four o’clock in the morning
My mind’s filled with a thousand thoughts of you
We have been together but living separate lives
So, I wanna tell you I’m sorry
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
You carried me like a river
How far we have come still surprises me
Now, I look in the mirror
Staring back is a girl I used to be

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway

I kept everything inside and even though I tried
it all fell apart
What it meant to me
will eventually
be a memory
of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I light a candle and place it up on the mantle
Grab a knife at the blade and stab you with the fuckin handle
So when you find yourself wrapped up in the blinds, hurtin
Bitch it's too late
Cause once you're hung from the drapes, it's curtains

Baby your da-da loves you
And I'ma always be here for you no matter what happens
You're all I got in this world
I would never give you up for nothin
Nobody in this world is ever gonna keep you from me
See honey.. there's a place called heaven and a place called hell
A place called prison and a place called jail
And da-da's probably on his way to all of em except one
Cause mama's got a new husband and a stepson
And you don't want a brother do ya?
Maybe when you're old enough to understand a little better
I'll explain it to ya





For my angel

EMINEM LYRICS

"Mockingbird"

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)

sunday
Had a pretty mush crapped up morning.. Refer to prev post if u really wna know. After that, we went out for lunch, but ended up eating dinner at compass point also.. o.0 Mostly cuz we spent the day shopping, with mom and da jie spening a whole lot of time trying slippers and shoes. kor was so sian, in thhhe end he went home.. although the trip was actually meant for him.. wonderful. then mom got new year clothes for the girls, first time so far in my life, mostly red. But quite nice lar.. budden i had to wait so long. SO LONG before she went to get clothes. And she got clothes cuz she misinterpreted me. haix. but overall fairly good day. =l

monday
Pretty okay, much like a normal scool day. But we missed out on art (batik) and i also kena caught by VP. lol.
Abt the VP.. she caught me cuz i tucked out my shirt, and she made me tuck it in. okay. then she asked me for my name and class. also fine. but didnt she notice that my first button was unbuttonned? didnt she notice that i had ankle socks? didnt she notice that i was wearing 3 earsticks? woahhh. she probably did. hahas.
Choir was pretty fun. Sang Salve. kewl. other than that, pretty okay. didnt play maple, watched Bleach. XD KaiYinXue coming over tomolox~

today
Kaiyin couldnt come over. sorta expected. family matters. then in the end when yinxue came, man i was disspointed. i forgot to get the themes~ damn. so in the end yinxue and me ended up wasting our time. fuckcuf crap. batik went well. the design was SO great. SO GREAT. XDDD but pretty hard to draw.. sighx. other than that, a prettyy okay day.

shoots down two angels. RAAAAAH

Dad:
Has extreme patience, and can lecture for hours. Literally. And if you just walk away, he will go on with his daily business lecturing the air. He also has an uncanny ability to cook either the most wonderful dishes or the most horrible dishes. yepyep. He is also very paranoid. Eg. ants, cleniness and stuff. But he accepts mess. For some reason. And my dad also loves wine. To bits and pieces. He always drinks wine or beer at night. But strangely he still dosent have a pot-belly. In fact, he still has those kind of male hunky look. Considering his age. He is also quite cranky. But that is acceptable of all men his age.

Mom:
Is overall a nice good mother. But pretty strict. The one cool and superly unique point about my mom is that she cant smell well. i know its not really as cool as you would have expected, but look! how many mothers are actally like that? ;D hahahha. its a long story why she cant smell well, but its a sad one nonetheless. but its cool. like you can fart and she cant smell. but soon she will. and shell identify it. hahahah. mom is also a super worker. shes a great(to the power of 10 recurring) mother as well as housewife. but not a really that great a wife. har har. i still dont understand how she ever married dad. *hmm..* but im closer to mom than dad. cuz mom understands.

Ben:
Ben is mi brothers nickname. Hes actually benedict but oh well, anything. he also likes to go around the house topless. i bet he learnt that from dad. so all the males in this house all go around topless. ahahaha. so whats so great about my brother. i dunno. hes great at studies undoubtedly, and pretty good at maaple, but he has a explosive temper. he also has mood swings. ;) heex. lol. he also has packs. 2-3 i think.. haha. and he's kinda tall. and he studies at AJC!! KEWL. this year, hes J2. ehehehe. and hes in the student council. wrahahaha. BUT ITS NOT FAIR! he can go around town and stuff but we (mi and my elder sis) cant!! T-T pity us.. anything. HNG!

Beat:
Beat is my sis. Her full name is Beatrice, and she studies at St. nicks. when i was p6 i really wanted to go to st nicks, but now i think cedar s better. -nods head vigorously so i wont get killed by some 14000 other cedarians- (but st nicks is actually a gd sch lor.) anyway, the unique thing abt mi sis is that she can relate to any little kid really well. REALLY WELL. >< so sweet! And she can draw well too. she has great perception and all that, so she wass reccomended into arts byy her last year art teacher. haha! she rocks too. shes the best in this whole family unless shes having pms. HAR HAR HAR! but shes nice. undoubtedly. and she has a lappy. sith a spoilt spacebar. which i am using now. kekeke! mi sis is also in the school hockey team! woooooot! so many exclamation marks. oo. which proves i get hyped over mi sis! yeaaaaah! she rocks! ROXY~ but mi sis does better tahn me in almost any aspect in life. almost. but i wont talk abt that. *coughs politely* Oh. My sis also has perfect eyesight. PERFECT. -envys her-

Me:
You should know who i am. If you dont, go bash you head against the wall. >=) So about me. HMM.. i dunno, actually. except that i like to copy mi sis. cuz shes like better than me and i wna be better so i copy her. o.0 but i have my ownoriginal points. gaah. cant think of any good points about me.. but if you can think of good points, pls tell me. im starting to feel zi bei. =.=

B4:
B4 is actually mi younger/est sister. She p3 this year, and for some reason she wants to go to cedar. ;D and shes still small and cute. but innocent no longer. HAR HAR. she also likes to run around the house in nothing but her undies. hahahahhahaha. its true. but now when i type it out it sounds so much funnier. XD *coughs* never mind. yep she unique that way. and she also is a couch potato. for kids central. i remember when i was p3 i read loads of books. so.. shes shibai. to a certain extent. but shes supposed to be brilliant. for some reason. haiii~

okay! thats about it for my family! wonderring angels, bye!

OMG! the cat. teachers are extorting money!! trying to get us to pay $10 for wad?!?! the file only cosys 0.7 then the notes at most only 2.0! say the name tag is really 3 bucks, then still only 5.7 wad!! 4.3 use for wad? wipe their asses? wtf! :angry:

so today, nothing much happened.

basically, i slacked the day away. But i helped mi bro level up. Almost. And now he owes me 10k. maple money. >=)) And i also lvled antisocial up one level. then i was doing mayas quest. but u all out there probably wont know what the crap im talking about. but never mind. its maple. MAPLE. XD

Other than that, today was pretty boring. And dad cooked up a nice lunch, tho i was too pissed to acknoledge that. family stuff. but overall, i think he did pretty well. gonna shower soon.

bye angels~

Good evening dear Sirs/Ma’am

I’m Berenice Choong from #04-563, and I am also the girl who has been calling out almost nightly ‘please don’t smoke!’ I don’t to make this a formal letter, but I also will try my best to not be rude or offensive.

As I have recently stopped having asthma attacks, I really don’t want it to re-surface again, it being triggered by cigarette smoke. To the residents who are not guilty of the act of smoking, I am sorry for sending you this letter, but if you are interested, you are welcome to read on and find out the ill effects of smoking as well as passive smoking. And yes, I have sent this letter to all the residents of Blk 345, Hougang Ave 7.

To the smoker(s), you may have heard this before, but if you have not, these are but a few of the side effects that smoking causes: heart disease, lung disease, cancers of the heart, mouth, lung throat, liver, brain and various other tissues. Certain ailments are also caused by cigarette smoking, of which one is emphysema. I’ll elaborate on them later.

This is pretty much common knowledge, but just to reinforce the fact that smoking harms you (I’m not at the passive smoking part yet), the chemical particulates you inhale include tar, which is used on road surfaces; various kinds of insecticides; and carbon monoxide, which combines readily with the hemoglobin in your blood, preventing the oxygen in your blood from reaching vital organs such as your brain and heart, along with other muscles.

Nicotine, the stuff that made you addicted to that little poisonous stick in the first place, is actually among the most deadly substances that can be found in a cigarette. Nicotine itself increases the rate at which your heart beats, while increasing your blood pressure and causing rapid, shallow breathing. Nicotine also blocks the release of insulin, the chemical that tells your cells to take up the excess glucose from your blood. In other words, Nicotine is the main factor that ‘helps’ smokers get diabetes. Nicotine also numbs the delivery of signals from your brain to your muscles; while ‘messing up’ the controls of basic functions like your energy level, the beating of your heart and how you breathe. Nicotine also aids the growth of cancer cells.

While you smoke, the larger particulates in the smoke you inhale get deposited on the mucus lining and larger airways of your lungs. Over time, these particulates and various gases would accumulate and end up scarring your lungs, as well as the cilia. In heavy smokers, the cilia are paralyzed, and the pollutants get accumulated in the lungs. As a result, the smoker, you, therefore has a greater chance to… suffer bronchitis g!

And by the way, people who smoke die almost 18 years earlier than people who had never smoked. Continued...
Then here comes the second part of my letter, passive smoking and its effects. You should very well know that a passive smoker does not gain anything good from inhaling the toxic air exhaled by a smoker. If you do not know that, I urge you to attend a seminar on the ill effects of smoking and what are the sad things happening to people who do not smoke but have to undergo passive smoking k.

Well, I personally dislike passive smoking to a GREAT extent, and I suppose other residents do too. But if they DO enjoy passive smoking, then all I can say is that I am a caring neighbor who cares for the welfare of her neighbors. Furthermore, once you smoke, majority of this block of residents will unknowingly become passive smokers. Yes. Even though we may hate and loathe the smell of it, and the effects it causes, we are unable to do anything but inhale the poisonous fumes you emit unless you stop. Look at the irony of it – a single smoker smokes, and numerous people suffer its bad consequences.

Young kids and growing teens like me will suffer stunted growth if exposed to cigarette smoke for a prolonged period of time. Some of the immediate effects of passive smoking also include eye irritation, headaches (which I do suffer), cough, sore throat, dizziness (which I also do undergo) and nausea. Non-asthmatic people may develop asthma when exposed to cigarette smoke frequently, while short-term exposure to tobacco smoke also has a measurable ill effect on the heart in non-smokers.

Just 30 minutes of exposure to cigarette smoke is enough to reduce coronary blood flow. Just think of that! How many of your colleagues may have suffered such heart ailments due to a cigarette often smoked during your lunch break? Furthermore, experts have also concluded that passive smoking contributes to the development of lung cancer and ischaemic heart disease in adult non-smokers. It also causes respiratory disease, cot death, middle ear disease and asthmatic attacks in children.

Also, when non-smokers are exposed to passive smoking, their blood cortin levels are increased to having a drastic 50-60% higher risk of heart disease. To keep you informed, Singapore has among the lowest birth rates, and death rates. In other words, Singapore is an ageing population. I suppose you do know what an ageing population is. So if you keep smoking and say I assume the worst, our entire block gets cancer and dies, won’t you then really be contributing to help Singapore’s population age faster? In fact, in the UK alone, an estimated 16,900 deaths are caused by passive smoking annually.

Ending on this serious note, I sincerely hope that you will go to an enclosed area the next time you smoke, such as a pub or in your car (assuming you have one). And if you really think that you cannot escape the bonds of Nicotine, I will gladly sponsor you the gum to help quit smoking should you inform me. I thank you and wish you the best.

Berenice Choong Hougang Ave 7, Blk 345, #04-563

kkx. ill start by writing yesterdays post.

yesterday
The morning was so freaking damned fucked up. Its like, mom wanted me to go to Morn Star after school, but anybody with a brain (and a life) wouldnt go there for nuts. The area is ROTTENNING. Most of it except the pu-pu room. but still, its not suitable for learning and playing maple and that kinda stuff. BUT ANYWAY. in the morning, i rejected moms offer, and i spewed up some pretty crappy reasons. and i lied about one of my reasons too. but it was too late to take bak mi words. so i tried to lie it thru and as all moms do, she saw thru mi lie. wadever. then she started railing at me. so i stormed outta the house, forgetting to tie my hair and take my whole load of files and handphone. so thats pretty screwed. think nail in the wall. yeah. SCREWED.

then as i was rushing outta the house, my mom suddenly shouted to me to come back home after school. wonderful. then i had to take the housekeys. which kept jabbing mi thigh in school. =.= So after school, i happily went home, to realise that mi sis sent me an sms, to tell me to go to Morn Star after school. wonderful. elated. so i called mi sis to tell her tt i was already home and tt i didnt bring mi hp to chool and she was really poissed. but i refused to shift my butt, and remained at home.

Then everything was pretty boring after that. i ate an egg for lunch, and basically realised that i forgot to bring bits and pieces of homework home to do over the weekend. oh joy. such bliss. (all those happy adjectives are pronounced in a bland, lat tone. Nothing happy.) I also had to hang the clothes at around 11pm cuz they only finished the wash at arnd that time. wonderfullll.

Today
today was pretty fun, and i read a whole bunch of fanfics, over almost the entire day. Then maple was screwed and yinxues blog was screwed. but thats pretty okay. considering the fact that i read around 40 decently long chapters of fanfics. that amkes up ALOT. Mostly Naruto and a bit of LOTR. all were parody. =))

But i did alot of house today lor!! Haii~ I washed the luch stuff, all the plates and pots and pans, then i cleared the rack halfway, and did various other small jobs around the house. Considering that washing plates is the greatest chore on Earth to me, that was a BIG achievement. =P anything.

oh. and yesterday, i killed this BIG housefly. yay!~ (thats something happy) but it was gross. and it kept buzzing on the tabletop even though we probably gave it as much baygon in the ratio to a smoker smoking 100 cigarettes.

which brings me to the main point of today. today i drafted and wrote this really long letter to the neighbours, to request for them to stop smoking. request. lol. its more like a complain letter. But i phrased it nicely. i'll make another entry containing the contents of the letter. hawhua. =D

Nighties all the angels out there!

re-doing the template again. lolx.

anyway, today was quite okay. Not really shitty. Its like, we had double art period and learnt some batik stuff, and the maths test wasnt that bad, so overall in school before recess was okay. I can even call it FUN.

but after recess, life screwed me upside-down. First was chinese. EEE! the horrigible Gao lao te wants us to re-write the shou ce. or something close enough. AND i found out that im even more screwed for chinese next year. wonderful. =.= how am i supposed to extract 3 compos from me? the standard will probably be like, p4 standard. wonderful. simply sonderful. so elated. (utterly humourless) AAH! and. after that was lit. so i naturally started writing down whatever relevent points i could pick out. to prevent stoning. stoning is ofiicially unhealthy. im sorry to all the people who love stoning out there. then after lit was CE. CE was probably the only nice period after recess. yeahyeah. recess to CE is not that long a time break anyway.. =( seemed long enuf tho.. HAII~~

Then next was choir. we met at 1.30 but everything only started at like -- 3.00pm? elated. then i got this *wierd*? sec one called penelope. pe ne lo pe. yeah. o.0 and she like, is wen-qinish. I KNOW IM BEING MEAN! aaaaaah! im labelling people! -slaps me- -punches me- -mutilates me- crap. then the games were okay. not particularly enjoyable, but the stuff we had to do was interesting. which brings me to the point on yinxue.

HAIX. the worst point of the day. YinXue. she like so upset today. esp. when shes hanging out with us. when she was with her alto frens she was still happy lor. tsk. whats the matter with us? i know ruiwen goes around raping her phone, but that cant possibly screw a friendship wad. WAD. haii~ is the prob wif me? am i too sticky or something? questions, questions! HELP.

im gonna end mi post here. any help? contact me. thnx.

blar. a new blog. just screwed up my prev one. T.T